Post by Deleted on Aug 25, 2013 10:20:24 GMT
"I love you Nathan...."
The words evoked a slight change in demeanor, but the urge to hide. To ignore took over. A carefully designed defense mechanism honed over years of mental abuse from someone I trusted.
"I......you know I care for you...."
Becky stared at me, her eyes filled with tears as the blue of her eyes radiated into my soul. But it was too late....
"Why are you doing this?......Did I do something wrong?...."
She shakes her head breathing labored as the panic takes over. I turn to her, stone faced and calm, dark, dead inside.
"No....."
A simple answer in a monotone growl.
"Nathan I don't understand...please I love you...we were going to have children-"
I turn fast and hard, I grab Becky's wrists and hold her against the wall. Her eyes turn from sadness to fear, her body stiffens under my grasp.
"ENOUGH....you have NO IDEA who I am Beck.....NONE....."
The bass in my voice and the volume seems to make her shake in fear. Never have I raised my voice to her or shown her a negative emotion.
"My name is not Nathan....my name is Nero......"
Her fearful look morphs through shock and anger.
"I thought I could turn away from who I am, from what I've done. But there is no turning back...there is no escaping our nature....."
Becky swallows hard, she tries to free her wrists, but my six foot four frame overpowers her with ease.
"And my nature?...well my nature is to be a predator. I feast on the innocent. I take innocence and happiness to feed me. Every single person I enlighten is a way back to the end of the road....."
"What are you talking about?"
"The man you knew, you loved, was a fake, a fabrication. He never existed. His past, present and future all thought up and played out by a blank slate. I have no heart, no soul.....I'm an empty vessel made in the vision of a man who just wanted control and a puppet....."
The words spit like venom from my mouth as I bare the heart that is left.
"My older brother was a prototype, he was the start of what would become me. But in the end....well I guess my father was right.....our family is cursed...."
I go quiet for a moment, I look down as I lament on my past, my real past. The anger, the pain the frustration.I throw the last few items into my bag and close it, Becky slides down the wall as the tears slide down her cheeks, and as the door closes it finally dawns on me....I have only just begun.
"Do you know what it's like to live a lie?"
Nero's eyes open, his long blonde hair flows down the sides of his face highlighting his handsome features.
"To look into the face of a beautiful woman, to see the love and devotion in her eyes and know that all the feelings she has for you are based on lies and deception. I know this feeling Stephan. I know this feeling and instead of having a moral code and having feelings of regret and loss. I just have nothing. I have no happiness, I have no sadness, I have no anger. I'm just empty....."
"For a time I felt lost.....I had no idea what to do."
"I thought everything I was raised for, trained for was a lie. My fathers lessons, his training, his philosophy all nothing but a woven tale to keep me in check. My brother saw through it and took off, that angered dear old father. He punished me, he made it harder for me to resist.....and in the end my mind was his...."
Nero sits forward as a boyish grin comes across his pale face.
"I tried to be like all of you. Normal, with emotions. Love, hate, anger, bliss...all of it things that I wanted to feel. And for a time I thought I did. But as the months passed I felt it all disappear. My fathers voice came into my mind and the haze I had felt seemed to clear. And I had a purpose again. To hunt, to corrupt, to lead...."
"I found like minded followers and they have become my family. I am their father. I am their brother....I am everything to them."
"You Stephan have been expelled from a situation where you had a family. Cyrus was the alpha. Everyone could see it. You're the answer to that unfunny joke people tell at cocktail parties that others just politely giggle at. You really are alone now. And I am willing to bet that scares you. When you were incarcerated you had others around you. You've had Cyrus watching your back and other members of the "church" you chose to believe in...."
Nero laughs to himself and shakes his head.
"A sign of weakness. To believe in a weak institution like religion. And now you're alone and weak. Me?. Well I'm never alone. I have those watching over me, ensuring my success. My lineage and my drive are unrivaled, and you will be the first to feel the power that I alone wield in this world......"
"And when you feel it, taste it, experience it. Then maybe you too will find a home by my side..licking my boot...."
"It's the kind of situation that you belong in. But I'm sure in prison you were used to licking something else Kingsley. Enjoy your new found freedom while you can, because when the darkness falls....you will fail...."
Well howdy there pardner.