Post by Ryan Shane on Feb 11, 2015 22:25:26 GMT
I NEVER tapped out.
The pain was intense, some of the worst I've ever felt. The thoughts crossed my mind, but...
I NEVER tapped out.
I couldn't. Winning the match was too important. I've only just returned and being derailed wasn't an option.
I NEVER tapped out.
It didn't matter. The referee stopped the match. He probably thought he was doing me a favor. He wasn't.
I fought too hard to have everything taken from me. If I had lost the match on my own, I could possibly accept it. Now I lost the match and it wasn't my fault.
I NEVER tapped out.
Maybe I should have...
The pain was intense, some of the worst I've ever felt. The thoughts crossed my mind, but...
I NEVER tapped out.
I couldn't. Winning the match was too important. I've only just returned and being derailed wasn't an option.
I NEVER tapped out.
It didn't matter. The referee stopped the match. He probably thought he was doing me a favor. He wasn't.
I fought too hard to have everything taken from me. If I had lost the match on my own, I could possibly accept it. Now I lost the match and it wasn't my fault.
I NEVER tapped out.
Maybe I should have...
February 4th, 2015
It was only a couple of days ago that Ryan Shane had his second match since his return to the IWF. Muru insisted that he stay in Vegas and let things blow over at home but Shane refused. Things have gotten a little tough for Ryan since his “altercation” with Chris Sears but he isn't going to run away from anything this time around. Instead he has decided to take his mind off things by trying to get ready for his next match.
Muru: How's the arm?
Ryan Shane: Honestly? It hurts like a bitch. I'm not sure I can compete at Sacrifice.
Muru: It's a good thing you don't have to worry about that.
Ryan Shane: I'm not booked? I know I was robbed out of my match but come on! I mean the extra week to heal would be nice but I need to compete. I have to keep my name out there.
Muru: Oh you have a match, but it's at Training Grounds.
Ryan Shane: I think you're confused. Training Grounds is the bullshit newbie group they tossed me in. I deal with it because I still get to compete on the big show.
Muru: That might have been true before. I'm not lying to you. Training Grounds is it's own show. It's not until next Thursday, so you still get that time to heal.
Ryan Shane: We will see about that.
Muru: What's that supposed to mean?
Ryan Shane: How am I supposed to make this return work if the IWF is cutting me down before I can get going?
Muru: Is that how you see it?
Ryan Shane: It's the only way to see it.
Muru: Alright, well once you figure out what you're going to do let me know.
Ryan Shane: I'm going to be there.
It's a slap in the face.
That's what I wanted to say. That's what I would have said in the past. The thing is I'm getting exactly what I deserve. I want to be a big deal, hell I even claim to be. In truth the beginning is where I need to start. I felt good when I beat Kyle Mason, less so when I was robbed against Al-Thani.
It isn't personal.
Deep down I know that. The IWF is a business and they are doing something right. If this is what they feel is best for Ryan Shane I would have to agree. The IWF has been nothing but patient with me and I am going to see things through for better or worse.
The IWF had faith is me. It's time I returned the favor.
That's what I wanted to say. That's what I would have said in the past. The thing is I'm getting exactly what I deserve. I want to be a big deal, hell I even claim to be. In truth the beginning is where I need to start. I felt good when I beat Kyle Mason, less so when I was robbed against Al-Thani.
It isn't personal.
Deep down I know that. The IWF is a business and they are doing something right. If this is what they feel is best for Ryan Shane I would have to agree. The IWF has been nothing but patient with me and I am going to see things through for better or worse.
The IWF had faith is me. It's time I returned the favor.
February 9th, 2015
Ryan walks into a bar he has never been to and begins to look around. It doesn't take long before a man sitting in the corner waves him over. When he looks closer he realizes that it's his old nemesis Chris Sears. Chris is wearing clothes to hide his appearance, because he doesn't want people to recognize him. Ryan takes a seat at the table across from him.
Chris Sears: Glad you could make it Ryan.
Ryan Shane: Cut the crap Sears. Why am I here?
Chris Sears: I've noticed that since our last get together things have been a little tough for you around town. It seems people got the wrong idea. I want to help you set the record straight.
Ryan Shane: It hasn't been a walk in the park I can tell you that. There are people who are saying I'm not American.
Chris Sears: I know. That second video where you said you would knock my teeth in didn't help.
Ryan Shane: So cut to the chase Sears.
Chris Sears: You got it RyRy, but first we drink.
Sears signals to the waitress that he would like a couple of beers. The waitress brings them back and Sears takes a drink.
Chris Sears: Drink up...
Ryan Shane: Not thirsty.
Chis Sears: Suit yourself.
Sears finishes off his beer and grabs Shane's.
Chris Sears: Like I said I'm here to help clear things up.
Ryan Shane: Alright, so what are you going to do? Go on TV and let people know it was all a misunderstanding?
Chris Sears: That could work...BUT you are going to have to do something for me.
Ryan Shane: I knew it.
Chris Sears: Think of it as doing something for a respected veteran, an American hero.
Ryan Shane: What is it?
Chris Sears: Nothing much. Just a simple donation in the amount of two hundred and fifty thousand dollars.
This catches Shane off guard.
Ryan Shane: That's crazy! I'm not going to pay you that.
Chris Sears: That's the costs for your freedom RyRy.
Ryan Shane: I think you overestimate the kind of money I make. I couldn't give you it even if I wanted to.
Chris Sears: Well that's the deal. I'm sure you will figure it out.
Sears finishes off the second beer and gets up from the table.
Chris Sears: I assume you will pick up this tab as well.
Ryan Shane: Of course. It's the only cash you will ever get from me.
Chris Sears: We'll just see about that. See you around RyRy.
Sears walks away from the table and heads toward the exit. Ryan slouches down in his chair and thinks over the deal he has been presented. When the waitress returns he orders another beer, this time for himself.
Ryan Shane: Where are the cameras at when that asshole is trying to extort money from me?
He takes a drink of the beer and settles in for a long night.
Victor Jace
We both know this isn't going to be our first go around. We both also know that whatever happened in the past doesn't matter. This is the IWF and everything is new again. It's the place where guys like use get second, and ever third chances.
I'm done a lot of wrong in this business. I never took blame for anything. It was never my own fault. Recently I've started to look at things a little differently. Now I must reap what I've sown. I need to take it like a man.
That doesn't mean I have to be happy about it. Do I want to be a part of the main roster? Yes. That's why I'm going to do whatever it takes. Training Grounds isn't exactly a talentless wasteland. There are plenty of guys who are just as hungry as I am.
My personal life has just added a little extra aggression to things. I want to hit something. I want to hurt someone. It's the release I need. I know I can't attack Chris Sears. For now there is nothing I can do about him, but Victor Jace is another story.
I NEVER tapped out.
I want Jace to remember that. His victory over Jack Gaither was impressive. I know Jack well enough to know he isn't a pushover. I also know that he isn't Ryan Shane. So while I'm sure Jace is looking to capitalize on his good fortune. It isn't going to be that easy.
I questioned whether I should have tapped out and lived to fight another day. It should would make this week's match a lot easier. Who cares if I may not be at one hundred percent. In this business it's pretty tough to be. It doesn't mean I won't get the job done. I might lose the match but I won't give up.
I know that when you look at me Jace you don't see much. I understand. I used to think the same way. No one could stand against me. In my eyes I was the better man every night. You couldn't tell me different. Then I decided to open my eyes and I saw that while I may be good there is always someone better. In the IWF there is a lot of guys better than me.
You might be better than me Jace. In fact I bet you are.
But like I said it doesn't matter. If you beat me life will go on. If I beat you, how will you feel? Will you be able to handle it? I'm betting not. Guys like you, like the old me, don't take losing well. It's what happens when your mind tells you no one is better than you. You make excuses.
Wait. I've made excuses this week as well.
I guess I can't change overnight. In my match against Al-Thani I didn't tap out. I also did nothing to keep myself out of harms way. So I guess the referee is off the hook. All the blame can be put on me. I lost because I'm not at the top of my game. I may never be again.
It doesn't mean I'm not going to try. It's time to dust myself off and get back on the horse. Sure there is a chip on my shoulder. Sure winning would be nice. A win over Victor Jace could go a long way.
A win is what I need, but is it what I deserve?
I want to wish you luck Victor. Everything before our match was the past and it can't be changed.
I may be “Right Now” Ryan Shane
BUT, I'm looking toward the future.
We both know this isn't going to be our first go around. We both also know that whatever happened in the past doesn't matter. This is the IWF and everything is new again. It's the place where guys like use get second, and ever third chances.
I'm done a lot of wrong in this business. I never took blame for anything. It was never my own fault. Recently I've started to look at things a little differently. Now I must reap what I've sown. I need to take it like a man.
That doesn't mean I have to be happy about it. Do I want to be a part of the main roster? Yes. That's why I'm going to do whatever it takes. Training Grounds isn't exactly a talentless wasteland. There are plenty of guys who are just as hungry as I am.
My personal life has just added a little extra aggression to things. I want to hit something. I want to hurt someone. It's the release I need. I know I can't attack Chris Sears. For now there is nothing I can do about him, but Victor Jace is another story.
I NEVER tapped out.
I want Jace to remember that. His victory over Jack Gaither was impressive. I know Jack well enough to know he isn't a pushover. I also know that he isn't Ryan Shane. So while I'm sure Jace is looking to capitalize on his good fortune. It isn't going to be that easy.
I questioned whether I should have tapped out and lived to fight another day. It should would make this week's match a lot easier. Who cares if I may not be at one hundred percent. In this business it's pretty tough to be. It doesn't mean I won't get the job done. I might lose the match but I won't give up.
I know that when you look at me Jace you don't see much. I understand. I used to think the same way. No one could stand against me. In my eyes I was the better man every night. You couldn't tell me different. Then I decided to open my eyes and I saw that while I may be good there is always someone better. In the IWF there is a lot of guys better than me.
You might be better than me Jace. In fact I bet you are.
But like I said it doesn't matter. If you beat me life will go on. If I beat you, how will you feel? Will you be able to handle it? I'm betting not. Guys like you, like the old me, don't take losing well. It's what happens when your mind tells you no one is better than you. You make excuses.
Wait. I've made excuses this week as well.
I guess I can't change overnight. In my match against Al-Thani I didn't tap out. I also did nothing to keep myself out of harms way. So I guess the referee is off the hook. All the blame can be put on me. I lost because I'm not at the top of my game. I may never be again.
It doesn't mean I'm not going to try. It's time to dust myself off and get back on the horse. Sure there is a chip on my shoulder. Sure winning would be nice. A win over Victor Jace could go a long way.
A win is what I need, but is it what I deserve?
I want to wish you luck Victor. Everything before our match was the past and it can't be changed.
I may be “Right Now” Ryan Shane
BUT, I'm looking toward the future.
Well howdy there pardner.