Post by Jason Sandman on Jul 2, 2017 20:44:56 GMT
What do you do when your worst dream becomes your reality? How do you react when everything you have ever fought for gets taken from you in the blink of an eye? How do you keep fighting when there is nothing left to fight for? Will you risk never getting it back with your actions to get it back?
I want to eat a bullet!!! It will do no good. Headed to Europe to see if there is hope there.
This was the post Jason Sandman left on his twitter account May 21st 2017. This post missed the watchful eye of IWF brass until three weeks after his debut. An intern had to bring it to their attention. Now Jason Sandman finds himself in a psychiatrist's office to assess his sanity.
This is not Jason’s first time in this position. Any promoter who has ever hired Jason eventually comes to the point in the relationship.
The doctor prepares to begin the session, but Jason doesn't wait for even the greeting.
Jason: I feel like shit. I smoke pot and drink to cover up the pain. I know I should stop. There we made it through the first few sessions now let's get to the heart of the matter and why I’m here. The men who set up this little meeting want to make sure that I’m not going to blow my goddamn brains out in the middle of the ring. The thing is I'm not going to do that. It won't work. So just sign whatever paper you need to and let me be on my way.
The psychiatrist doesn't seem amused, but doesn't want to lose what may already be there. So the questions start.
Psychiatrist: Why wouldn't it work Mr. Sandman? People are able to commit suicide everyday.
Jason: Too much to explain, and even if I did it would only cause me to fuck up whoever you call to take me to the psych ward. So let's just say he won't let it kill me.
The doctor writes down a few notes and then continues.
Psychiatrist: Who is he?
Jason: Death itself. The stupid son of a bitch thinks it's a game.
Psychiatrist: Why wouldn't Death want you to die. Isn't that it's purpose. I'll let you think on that, but first I want to know why you would want to kill yourself. You seem to have an interesting life for what I hear.
Jason: Interesting enough.
Jason stops talking, but the psychiatrist seems to motion for Jason to continue. So Jason does.
Jason: Lose. I want to kill myself because I lose everything I care about. My mother…my brother...my wife. All dead. All that's left is my daughter. Eventually she too will be taken away. It's happened before. My mother in law has never liked me or the way her daughter was treated and granddaughter is treated. While I was away on tour she filed for custody of my daughter and when I got home she was gone. I live in a fucked up town. I got her back, and now I never stay in one place long enough to have feelings felt.
Psychiatrist: That sounds tragic. I can see how you may feel the way you do about your life, but don't lose heart. Death will come to you eventually. Once it's grown tired of you, it will let you be free. Just long enough for you to see your daughter's heart break.
Jason Sandman shoots up from the chair he fell asleep in. That's when he realizes that he is in the waiting room of the psychiatrist he was sent to by IWF. As he regains his bearings the receptionist tells Jason the doctor will see him now. As Jason starts walking towards the office door he hears The Angel’s hiss.
The Angel: Tell him anything about me, and you will feast upon Brandy’s heart.
Hearing those words was just another reminder of how much control The Angel has over Jason’s mind. Being forced to live horrifying events from his life over again just so The Angel could send his message.
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Jason finds himself sitting behind and listening to his new partner, Ulf, speak on Heir to the Throne, the events that occurred at Bloody Assizes, and their match against Derek Brooks and Jacen North. While Ulf talks Jason Sandman decides to light up a blunt.
As Ulf comes to the end of his speech and looks back at Sandman, Jason motions for Ulf to take the blunt. Ulf puts his hand up as a sign of refusal. Jason just shrugs his shoulders and takes a few more puffs before turning his attention to the camera.
Jason: I am going to be perfectly honest with you people. I have no goddamn clue what Ulf just said, but what I do know is heart. This kid has a lot of heart when it comes to this business. It was the deciding factor in joining The Council. Kole and Xavier know their shit, but with Ulf there is forming that can be done. A young mind that hasn't been corrupted by years in a business that can fuck up your life without any regard. Someone who can learn from my mistakes. Don’t become me Ulf. You will hate yourself in the morning.
Ulf looks at Jason perplexed by his words. Jason just waves it off.
Jason: So The Council did what needed to be done. Take out those who are part of the fucking. Spike, Lazlo, Cable, and…...Roberto Verona. We had it all figured out, then came time for who would take out who and without question I said I got the boss. Sort of become my specialty. Come into a company and within weeks management always seems to deem me noncompliant with their wishes. A perfect gentleman like myself and they always find issue.
Jason gives a cocky smile.
Jason: So I figured fuck it. Let's go ahead and get business started. Don’t be getting back in that suit just yet. Those designer names always hurt when you have to try and get blood and human feces cleaned out of them. Hurts the pocket and the pride. Not that I've ever owned high class fashion, but I've received enough cleaning bills. So get ready Roberto because you know know when Daddy will get bored.
But before or hell even more likely after that happens me and Ulf here have a little match that we get to take part in. Seems that our first undertaking with Heir to the Throne is a tag match against two guys that aren't worth the fart of a lady. One of these men have already gotten to take Council justice. Derek Brooks I'm sure there is some part of you that thought you had a chance against Cross, but you failed your people. Greatness Personified? Son you will see greatness stand over you before you are pulled up to your feet and slammed down on your neck. I'm sure you were something special back in the day, but the sun has set on your little world and there is only The Council. As for your partner Jacen North, from everything I can gather this is your debut match.
Jason gives his cocky smile again.
Jason(singsong voice): I promise I will be gentle little one. Don't worry bout a thing. It will all be over soon. Then you can go away.
(Normal voice): It would almost be a shame if I was a good person, but fuck it. I can feel the bloodlust flow through me. No need to fight it tonight. Goodnight Jacen and Derek….Death has come for you.
With that Jason Sandman is no longer there. Only a lifeless shell with dead eyes and a bone chilling smile. The cameraman starts backing away as The Angel’s hiss is heard.
The Angel: Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name. Receive your children that I send to you, and show them their new day.
Fear not my little ones for you are but facing your own mortality. I'm sure you saw grandchildren, but it was not to be. The choices you made have brought forth your early demise. Oh how I wish it could not be, but rest well for soon you will see a reality mortals only dream of understanding.
Hush little babies don't say a word, life is just a gift you haven't earned.
With that haunting nursery rhyme The Angel releases Jason and allows him to be reborn. Jason looks over at Ulf and then the cameraman.
Jason: Sweet dreams everyone. At Sacrifice the nightmare begins.
I want to eat a bullet!!! It will do no good. Headed to Europe to see if there is hope there.
This was the post Jason Sandman left on his twitter account May 21st 2017. This post missed the watchful eye of IWF brass until three weeks after his debut. An intern had to bring it to their attention. Now Jason Sandman finds himself in a psychiatrist's office to assess his sanity.
This is not Jason’s first time in this position. Any promoter who has ever hired Jason eventually comes to the point in the relationship.
The doctor prepares to begin the session, but Jason doesn't wait for even the greeting.
Jason: I feel like shit. I smoke pot and drink to cover up the pain. I know I should stop. There we made it through the first few sessions now let's get to the heart of the matter and why I’m here. The men who set up this little meeting want to make sure that I’m not going to blow my goddamn brains out in the middle of the ring. The thing is I'm not going to do that. It won't work. So just sign whatever paper you need to and let me be on my way.
The psychiatrist doesn't seem amused, but doesn't want to lose what may already be there. So the questions start.
Psychiatrist: Why wouldn't it work Mr. Sandman? People are able to commit suicide everyday.
Jason: Too much to explain, and even if I did it would only cause me to fuck up whoever you call to take me to the psych ward. So let's just say he won't let it kill me.
The doctor writes down a few notes and then continues.
Psychiatrist: Who is he?
Jason: Death itself. The stupid son of a bitch thinks it's a game.
Psychiatrist: Why wouldn't Death want you to die. Isn't that it's purpose. I'll let you think on that, but first I want to know why you would want to kill yourself. You seem to have an interesting life for what I hear.
Jason: Interesting enough.
Jason stops talking, but the psychiatrist seems to motion for Jason to continue. So Jason does.
Jason: Lose. I want to kill myself because I lose everything I care about. My mother…my brother...my wife. All dead. All that's left is my daughter. Eventually she too will be taken away. It's happened before. My mother in law has never liked me or the way her daughter was treated and granddaughter is treated. While I was away on tour she filed for custody of my daughter and when I got home she was gone. I live in a fucked up town. I got her back, and now I never stay in one place long enough to have feelings felt.
Psychiatrist: That sounds tragic. I can see how you may feel the way you do about your life, but don't lose heart. Death will come to you eventually. Once it's grown tired of you, it will let you be free. Just long enough for you to see your daughter's heart break.
Jason Sandman shoots up from the chair he fell asleep in. That's when he realizes that he is in the waiting room of the psychiatrist he was sent to by IWF. As he regains his bearings the receptionist tells Jason the doctor will see him now. As Jason starts walking towards the office door he hears The Angel’s hiss.
The Angel: Tell him anything about me, and you will feast upon Brandy’s heart.
Hearing those words was just another reminder of how much control The Angel has over Jason’s mind. Being forced to live horrifying events from his life over again just so The Angel could send his message.
----
Jason finds himself sitting behind and listening to his new partner, Ulf, speak on Heir to the Throne, the events that occurred at Bloody Assizes, and their match against Derek Brooks and Jacen North. While Ulf talks Jason Sandman decides to light up a blunt.
As Ulf comes to the end of his speech and looks back at Sandman, Jason motions for Ulf to take the blunt. Ulf puts his hand up as a sign of refusal. Jason just shrugs his shoulders and takes a few more puffs before turning his attention to the camera.
Jason: I am going to be perfectly honest with you people. I have no goddamn clue what Ulf just said, but what I do know is heart. This kid has a lot of heart when it comes to this business. It was the deciding factor in joining The Council. Kole and Xavier know their shit, but with Ulf there is forming that can be done. A young mind that hasn't been corrupted by years in a business that can fuck up your life without any regard. Someone who can learn from my mistakes. Don’t become me Ulf. You will hate yourself in the morning.
Ulf looks at Jason perplexed by his words. Jason just waves it off.
Jason: So The Council did what needed to be done. Take out those who are part of the fucking. Spike, Lazlo, Cable, and…...Roberto Verona. We had it all figured out, then came time for who would take out who and without question I said I got the boss. Sort of become my specialty. Come into a company and within weeks management always seems to deem me noncompliant with their wishes. A perfect gentleman like myself and they always find issue.
Jason gives a cocky smile.
Jason: So I figured fuck it. Let's go ahead and get business started. Don’t be getting back in that suit just yet. Those designer names always hurt when you have to try and get blood and human feces cleaned out of them. Hurts the pocket and the pride. Not that I've ever owned high class fashion, but I've received enough cleaning bills. So get ready Roberto because you know know when Daddy will get bored.
But before or hell even more likely after that happens me and Ulf here have a little match that we get to take part in. Seems that our first undertaking with Heir to the Throne is a tag match against two guys that aren't worth the fart of a lady. One of these men have already gotten to take Council justice. Derek Brooks I'm sure there is some part of you that thought you had a chance against Cross, but you failed your people. Greatness Personified? Son you will see greatness stand over you before you are pulled up to your feet and slammed down on your neck. I'm sure you were something special back in the day, but the sun has set on your little world and there is only The Council. As for your partner Jacen North, from everything I can gather this is your debut match.
Jason gives his cocky smile again.
Jason(singsong voice): I promise I will be gentle little one. Don't worry bout a thing. It will all be over soon. Then you can go away.
(Normal voice): It would almost be a shame if I was a good person, but fuck it. I can feel the bloodlust flow through me. No need to fight it tonight. Goodnight Jacen and Derek….Death has come for you.
With that Jason Sandman is no longer there. Only a lifeless shell with dead eyes and a bone chilling smile. The cameraman starts backing away as The Angel’s hiss is heard.
The Angel: Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name. Receive your children that I send to you, and show them their new day.
Fear not my little ones for you are but facing your own mortality. I'm sure you saw grandchildren, but it was not to be. The choices you made have brought forth your early demise. Oh how I wish it could not be, but rest well for soon you will see a reality mortals only dream of understanding.
Hush little babies don't say a word, life is just a gift you haven't earned.
With that haunting nursery rhyme The Angel releases Jason and allows him to be reborn. Jason looks over at Ulf and then the cameraman.
Jason: Sweet dreams everyone. At Sacrifice the nightmare begins.
Well howdy there pardner.