Post by Freya Kane on Aug 8, 2013 21:37:23 GMT
"I've been thinking a lot lately about a great deal of things. The first is the place that I have in IWF. A fresh company means a fresh start but you know what this feels like anything but right now. Still getting the same lame ass comments I was last year. Getting the same looks from people as I did last year. Nothing about IWF right now feels fresh to me. Instead its another promotion where I wanted to have one and people cannot let go of my past.
Its frustrating to know that despite admitting you've done things you're not proud of in the past that you can't ever really escape it. People look at me around here in IWF and they see either just the cousin of Brad and Spike Kane trying to leech off of their fame, or as Amber Richards said on Twitter and decide that I am something I'm not. I don't get it. I don't get this at all anymore. Why do we spend so much time focusing on the negatives and pasts of others?
Everyone has so much more than that to offer to the world. I try not to be judgemental and negative towards anyone these days because its not really constructive. Its like when people begin to blast my student about how she is. Do you ever think there are reasons why people like they do? We're all a victim of our past and while it does exist no one needs a reminder of it. We act like we do to get past it or try to forget about it completely.
My student acts like in such a manner because its easier for her to cope with what she's gone through. Acting cheery, nice and bubbly suddenly equates to being a retard and I don't think that's right at all. So many of you women, and men, want to be looked at as these heartless fiends becaues you think it's awesome. Yay for you, right? Everyone wants to be a tough guy despite not ever going through anything to make them tough at all.
This is why I praise the women in wrestling who are true to themselves and be who they want to be. I love that my student gets fired up when someone calls her out like that. I love it when the woman who beats her acts like she did so with ease when you were in a fight for your life against her. I love how nearly every single woman on this roster really doesn't understand much of anything. Do you know why Jessica Reed is our Diamond's Champion?
She certainly is talented. She is loved by the fans. Jessica has the kind of mind that makes wrestling fun for people to watch. I would pay a lot of money to see Jessica Reed on a weekly basis in that ring. Would I pay money to see someone like Amber Richards who is all super hard ass? Nope. Jessica is the standard for us right now and no one else. She's making that Diamond's Title into a fantastic title.
With her bubbly nature, sweet demeanor and from what I've seen, going out of her way to interact with the fans who love her so much. She's signing autographs, high fiving fans and hanging out with people all the time. Jessica gets it. Tifa understands that the fans mean everything to us in wrestling! They're both talented and nice and sweet and will have one of the most fun matches in the history of wrestling at Lineage.
I get Jessica in the ring this week. I have no huge delusions of beating the hottest property in wrestling right now. Jessica could step up to anyone in this company and beat them with. I feel this aura of confidence radiating off of her because she doesn't let anyone effect who she is. I respect that you, Jess. I respect what you bring to the table because you remind me of someone else I used to wrestle with.
You're almost like Tifa's big sister, Miaka. The way she acted was just like you. Bubbly, cheerful and all around a fun person to be around. This is why she's taken to you, Jess, because you are exactly like her sister before she became bitter and jaded towards life. In a way you remind Tifa of what life was like before her problems began. You've brought out the girl I used to know from back in day. This is why I can't harbor any resentment towards you, champ.
Yeah, I'd love to pin your shoulders to the mat or make you tap about but its not about this week for me. It's about helping to show that labels in this business don't mean anything. Everything is staying true to who you are and letting it fall off of your shoulders. You and Tifa are the future of women's wrestling. Some might not like it but it's the truth.
Me?
I'm honestly just here to make sure Tifa stays on the right path. Nothing more then that. I really have no title hopes, no real plans of advancement and I just want to wrestle here or there. Monday night is my first time on the big TV show and I just want a match that steals the show. That's all I care about here in IWF, having the best possible match every single night.
Good luck, Jessica, I wish you well in our contest this week. I've been looking forward to getting into the ring against the person Tifa calls her best friend."
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I sit in this restarunt in L.A. right now a little past noon on Thursday. Across the table from me sits my best friend Hope and her husband CJ. Yeah, I already have a new best friend because she's that awesome, get on my level. Sitting with them are their two children. With me on my side are my three. Hope and CJ both have grins on their faces while people begin to hoop and holler. I turn my head to see what awaits me and I fear it. I really fear this...
Oh god, why did I agree to eating this? Then it hits me. Just for attempting to eat this I'm getting $100,000 from CJ. What a bet this is. Like two bites and I make a lot of money! Of course CJ and Hope gave me $250,000 once just because I joked about it. Hello college funds for my kids! All three of them have a big one set up and soon enough I'll get one set up for my stepson. This monster is placed on the table. My boys' eyes grow wider then their heads.
Jayden: MOMMY GON'A EAT 'AT?
Brandon: Dat lotta food...
Tasha doesn't say anything while Hope and CJ both take a picture of it with their phones. Hope keeps her phone up in the air on me while I look at this thing.
Hope: Hey everyone. "Wrestling's Dangerous Tiger" Freya Kane is going to attempt to eat this big, fat sandwich in 40 minutes. I will be recording this for scientific purpose on the off chance her stomach explodes.
Oh har har...
Freya: Man, I just didn't think it'd be this huge. I think this sandwich is bigger then Tasha!
CJ: Certainly is rather large. How much do you think you'll be able to eat?
Freya: I'm going to guess half at the most. I don't even know how to attack this...
Hope: The clock is ticking so get into it!
Yeah, this like one of those food challenges. People get a measly 40 minutes to down this sucker. Two have done it before out of nearly 1,000 and had their own sandwiches like this made and put onto a menu. I grab a knife and fork starting to dig in while Hope keeps recording me. I really feel weird eating this in front of a camera.
Freya: Can you please stop recording? I don't want people to see me eat this at all...
Hope: Oh come on, it'll be fun to watch later when you're trying not to rush to the bathroom!
Freya: But I don't want this going viral and having more of an excuse for people calling me out.
Hope sighs before turning off the phone's video camera and sets it down. Slowly but surely I begin to eat this monsterous sandwich trying to keep pace with the clock moving. Time seems to move slower after every bite. Not even a fifth of the way through this and I want to burst from my stomach. More food goes into my mouth with everything just becoming just this giant ball of future poop. A fourth of the way done and I just can't eat anymore. If I do, I will be in a lot of trouble.
Freya: I... I can't finish this. There is just way too much...
Hope and CJ both look at one another and clap their hands for me anyways for trying. My boys look impressed that their mommy who isn't very big at all ate that much of a giant sandwich. Tasha still doesn't really care instead spending more time coloring with Hope and CJ's son, Jake.
Brandon: Wow, mommy ate lots...
Hope: Yeah, your mommy sure did. When do you think she's gonna eat again?
Jayden: Next year!
That makes me chuckle before the staff come over to take away my new white whale. I will never be able to eat something that large. Not even if it's a pizza. Hope smiles at me kinda proud I didn't chicken out of the bet I made with CJ.
Hope: You ate more of that then I thought you would. Probably two pounds of food.
Freya: I feel like I gained two dress sizes after that...
Hope: Hey you have until February to work it off!
I smile before giggling. Hope is my matron of honor and it's awesome. They don't know something that I do, not yet anyways.
Freya: No, I only have until December. He moved it up so the wedding is on my birthday.
CJ: Smart... same day so he doesn't forget either of them...
Typical man stuff right? I smile with my friends knowing that life is still on the rise after a hard start to the year. If 2012 was my death song then 2013 is certainly my resurrection song. Now its time to head back to Miami and see how messy my house is after Cameron and Aiden moved in... the silly man joked about having boxing kangaroo fights for money. Ah, I love him. I love everything. Except haters. Fuck the haters.
Well howdy there pardner.