Post by Cable Arcane on Feb 25, 2018 22:38:40 GMT
As I sit here typing this the date is February 24th, 2018 and my court case of manslaughter allegations are long over. However there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about what I went through and how lucky I am to still be breathing fresh air as a free man. It was entirely possible that I was going to get sentenced to a very long time in prison, however as you will find out as my story progresses I was able to prove my innocence.
But it was during those dark days that I truly found myself. Before the allegations I was an incredibly egotistical and self centered man. I didn’t care about anyone but myself. I trained every waking moment. I had no personal life. I alienated my family and I pushed away people I cared about. I didn’t step into the ring to entertain our paying fans, I stepped into the ring to prove my dominance.
That mentality got me very far. It took me to two Imperial title reigns and a Hall of Fame induction but I never felt satisfied. I was constantly starving for more. I needed to fill the void in my soul with victory after victory. I was living a meaningless existence.
But when my freedom was stripped away, when the reality that my life as I knew it was over started to settle in I saw how empty I was.
I hated myself.
I hated who I allowed myself to become. Who I was reminded me of my father and even though I will always love him because he’s my father there will always be a part of me who hates the man he was. He was abusive, he was angry, he didn’t care about people. The people around him were nothing more than tools to accomplish his goals. He used his friends and family. I had become that. I wasn’t living my life, I was just existing.
Being faced with serious jail time changed that.
I saw for the first time how incredibly lucky I was. The life I’ve lived has been absolutely amazing. I have wrestled in every major professional wrestling market on the entire planet. I have wrestled some of the best wrestlers to ever live. I have held championships and accomplished goals I could only dream of as a child watching professional wrestling on a Saturday morning.
My life, for lack of a better term, has been extremely blessed.
This is the golden age of professional wrestling. There are more companies, more fans and more talent than there has ever been before. I’m lucky to be able to face the men I face, lucky to work with the people I work with, lucky to be a part of the biggest professional wrestling promotion in the world and lucky to have held their top championship on two occasions.
That is a view I was not capable of having prior to being accused on manslaughter. Before that I was blind and deaf. I wandered the landscape unaware and uncaring of the people I encountered and subsequently hurt.
I’m sorry for that. Truly.
I’ve been writing this story as a way to make amends to the the people I’ve hurt. I want them to understand that while I wasn’t aware of how I was acting that that isn’t an excuse. That I fully intend to make amends. That I wish to do what I never did before and not only entertain the crowd but be someone who they can cheer and believe in.
When Roberto Verona put me in charge of IWF it was to teach me a lesson. I learned the lesson. Being in charge is so much more than I thought it was and I now appreciate what Roberto Verona was trying to say to me.
People are selfish by nature.
It’s not their fault but most people can’t see past their own nose. Most people live in a bubble. They can’t see past their own desires, their own needs, even the ones who pretend to be heroes, they still act that way out of a selfish need to be praised. As the man in charge of IWF I learned to see how difficult it is to govern over people who don’t care about the greater prosperity.
For this company to be successful, for all of us to have jobs and be able to do what it is we love the IWF needs to remain strong. We can’t allow egos to take over. Roberto Verona taught me that and I see now that while many, including myself accused him of abusing his power he was only doing what he knew would benefit the IWF.
Being the man in charge was a burden I never expected. Keeping the various egos in check has been a challenge I could have never predicted. The people I govern don’t understand or appreciate the sacrifice I make. I can’t wrestle on a weekly basis because then it looks like I’m pushing myself. I can’t chase after a championship because then I’m abusing my power. I have to sit back and watch people do what I love to do and make business decisions based off of what I see.
Running the IWF is the second greatest challenge of my life.
However one man has decided to take the position I used to hold. One man has decided he thinks I’m corrupt despite all the evidence to the contrary. One man has put his own personal needs ahead of the company.
Steve Awesome.
Truth be told Steve, I respect you. The career you’ve had outside of IWF has been amazing and unlike most people I do care about and respect the things people have accomplished else where. I understand that while IWF may be the biggest company it isn’t the only company. Take Nighthawk for example, he’s a former champion and an amazingly talented wrestler just like you.
Unlike you he doesn’t abuse the good name his reputation gives him. Steve Awesome abuses his good name, he abuses his reputation, he abuses the fans who crave for and care about him. At his best Steve Awesome is someone everyone can cheer for an at his worst Steve Awesome is someone everyone will pay to see lose.
You’re a gold mine for IWF.
A utility player. We could put you anywhere on the card and you would make the most of it. You’re a promoters wet dream come true, Steve. But you don’t want to be an utility player. You want to be the main event and that is an admirable desire but you don’t seem to understand that not everyone can be on top of the mountain at the same time. Furthermore, IWF is a company where you get what you earn and you haven’t earned a goddamn thing.
You’ve bought into your own hype. I’ve seen your contract you negotiated with Roberto Verona. I know how many dates you feel you need to work. How can you expect to be the top guy when you only wrestle a couple dozen of times a year? There are guys and girls on this roster who wrestle eight days a week. They work hard and strive to be the very best. I don’t agree with all of their personal beliefs but I have to acknowledge as the man in charge how hard they work.
You don’t work.
You want to sit back and let your name carry you forward. You want Steve Awesome to be the marquee without having to do a damn thing. You want all of us to step back and let you rule supreme without you having to fight. Well I’m sorry Steve but that isn’t how this company works. Not under Roberto Verona.
And especially not under me.
You want to be in the main event you have to earn it. You want to face Andrew Jacobsen then you have to earn it. If you ever want to be more than just another match on the card then you have to earn it. So far you haven’t earned a goddamn thing. Your protege Jayson Matthews is a prime example of a man who earns his keep. He works hard, he trains hard, he fights hard and he has earned single thing he has achieved.
What have you earned? What have you achieved?
IWF has been around damn near five years and Steve Awesome hasn’t won a single championship, he hasn’t won a single big match, Steve Awesome hasn’t done a goddamn thing worth noting. And that pisses you off but you know what?
You deserve it.
You deserve the huge mountain of nothing you have accomplished. NCW is dead and gone. And yeah you did some really awesome things there but Steve, what have you done lately? See, that’s my issue with you. You don’t appreciate what you have, what you’ve done, you don’t look at your career in amazement of your accomplishments.
You just want more.
And you don’t want to earn it.
The thing is you won’t be going anywhere or getting anything until I feel you’ve earned it. Accuse me of bias, fine, I don’t care. It’s not going to change my decisions. It’s not going to change your placement on the card. Until you step up your game and actually become a player you will remain the utility player I want you to be.
That’s what you’ve earned.
You see Steve you call yourself the Face of the Franchise but I prove I’m the Best in the World. I was proving it while I was away from IWF and I proved it in IWF. I won the Heir to the Throne. I won the Imperial Championship. Twice. I’ve faced and beaten almost every legend this company has. I work constantly to prepare myself to beat the ones I haven’t. I am in constant preparation for the next challenge because I understand if I don’t work to keep to my position someone will work to take it.
You’re not stepping into this match to prove you’re better than me, you just want to win. You don’t care how that happens. You’ll steal a win, fake an injury, hell I wouldn’t be surprised if you paid a family member to fake a heart attack at ring side just to distract the referee.
But me?
I want to defeat you. I want to prove I am every bit as good as I say I am. I want you to know without a shadow of a doubt that Cable Arcane is the best professional wrestler alive today and you don’t even come close to matching up.
I want you to know I’m better than you.
I’m a better man.
I’m a better professional wrestler.
I’m. Better. Than. You.
No sleep. No rest. I’ll do whatever it takes to be the best.
But it was during those dark days that I truly found myself. Before the allegations I was an incredibly egotistical and self centered man. I didn’t care about anyone but myself. I trained every waking moment. I had no personal life. I alienated my family and I pushed away people I cared about. I didn’t step into the ring to entertain our paying fans, I stepped into the ring to prove my dominance.
That mentality got me very far. It took me to two Imperial title reigns and a Hall of Fame induction but I never felt satisfied. I was constantly starving for more. I needed to fill the void in my soul with victory after victory. I was living a meaningless existence.
But when my freedom was stripped away, when the reality that my life as I knew it was over started to settle in I saw how empty I was.
I hated myself.
I hated who I allowed myself to become. Who I was reminded me of my father and even though I will always love him because he’s my father there will always be a part of me who hates the man he was. He was abusive, he was angry, he didn’t care about people. The people around him were nothing more than tools to accomplish his goals. He used his friends and family. I had become that. I wasn’t living my life, I was just existing.
Being faced with serious jail time changed that.
I saw for the first time how incredibly lucky I was. The life I’ve lived has been absolutely amazing. I have wrestled in every major professional wrestling market on the entire planet. I have wrestled some of the best wrestlers to ever live. I have held championships and accomplished goals I could only dream of as a child watching professional wrestling on a Saturday morning.
My life, for lack of a better term, has been extremely blessed.
This is the golden age of professional wrestling. There are more companies, more fans and more talent than there has ever been before. I’m lucky to be able to face the men I face, lucky to work with the people I work with, lucky to be a part of the biggest professional wrestling promotion in the world and lucky to have held their top championship on two occasions.
That is a view I was not capable of having prior to being accused on manslaughter. Before that I was blind and deaf. I wandered the landscape unaware and uncaring of the people I encountered and subsequently hurt.
I’m sorry for that. Truly.
I’ve been writing this story as a way to make amends to the the people I’ve hurt. I want them to understand that while I wasn’t aware of how I was acting that that isn’t an excuse. That I fully intend to make amends. That I wish to do what I never did before and not only entertain the crowd but be someone who they can cheer and believe in.
When Roberto Verona put me in charge of IWF it was to teach me a lesson. I learned the lesson. Being in charge is so much more than I thought it was and I now appreciate what Roberto Verona was trying to say to me.
People are selfish by nature.
It’s not their fault but most people can’t see past their own nose. Most people live in a bubble. They can’t see past their own desires, their own needs, even the ones who pretend to be heroes, they still act that way out of a selfish need to be praised. As the man in charge of IWF I learned to see how difficult it is to govern over people who don’t care about the greater prosperity.
For this company to be successful, for all of us to have jobs and be able to do what it is we love the IWF needs to remain strong. We can’t allow egos to take over. Roberto Verona taught me that and I see now that while many, including myself accused him of abusing his power he was only doing what he knew would benefit the IWF.
Being the man in charge was a burden I never expected. Keeping the various egos in check has been a challenge I could have never predicted. The people I govern don’t understand or appreciate the sacrifice I make. I can’t wrestle on a weekly basis because then it looks like I’m pushing myself. I can’t chase after a championship because then I’m abusing my power. I have to sit back and watch people do what I love to do and make business decisions based off of what I see.
Running the IWF is the second greatest challenge of my life.
However one man has decided to take the position I used to hold. One man has decided he thinks I’m corrupt despite all the evidence to the contrary. One man has put his own personal needs ahead of the company.
Steve Awesome.
Truth be told Steve, I respect you. The career you’ve had outside of IWF has been amazing and unlike most people I do care about and respect the things people have accomplished else where. I understand that while IWF may be the biggest company it isn’t the only company. Take Nighthawk for example, he’s a former champion and an amazingly talented wrestler just like you.
Unlike you he doesn’t abuse the good name his reputation gives him. Steve Awesome abuses his good name, he abuses his reputation, he abuses the fans who crave for and care about him. At his best Steve Awesome is someone everyone can cheer for an at his worst Steve Awesome is someone everyone will pay to see lose.
You’re a gold mine for IWF.
A utility player. We could put you anywhere on the card and you would make the most of it. You’re a promoters wet dream come true, Steve. But you don’t want to be an utility player. You want to be the main event and that is an admirable desire but you don’t seem to understand that not everyone can be on top of the mountain at the same time. Furthermore, IWF is a company where you get what you earn and you haven’t earned a goddamn thing.
You’ve bought into your own hype. I’ve seen your contract you negotiated with Roberto Verona. I know how many dates you feel you need to work. How can you expect to be the top guy when you only wrestle a couple dozen of times a year? There are guys and girls on this roster who wrestle eight days a week. They work hard and strive to be the very best. I don’t agree with all of their personal beliefs but I have to acknowledge as the man in charge how hard they work.
You don’t work.
You want to sit back and let your name carry you forward. You want Steve Awesome to be the marquee without having to do a damn thing. You want all of us to step back and let you rule supreme without you having to fight. Well I’m sorry Steve but that isn’t how this company works. Not under Roberto Verona.
And especially not under me.
You want to be in the main event you have to earn it. You want to face Andrew Jacobsen then you have to earn it. If you ever want to be more than just another match on the card then you have to earn it. So far you haven’t earned a goddamn thing. Your protege Jayson Matthews is a prime example of a man who earns his keep. He works hard, he trains hard, he fights hard and he has earned single thing he has achieved.
What have you earned? What have you achieved?
IWF has been around damn near five years and Steve Awesome hasn’t won a single championship, he hasn’t won a single big match, Steve Awesome hasn’t done a goddamn thing worth noting. And that pisses you off but you know what?
You deserve it.
You deserve the huge mountain of nothing you have accomplished. NCW is dead and gone. And yeah you did some really awesome things there but Steve, what have you done lately? See, that’s my issue with you. You don’t appreciate what you have, what you’ve done, you don’t look at your career in amazement of your accomplishments.
You just want more.
And you don’t want to earn it.
The thing is you won’t be going anywhere or getting anything until I feel you’ve earned it. Accuse me of bias, fine, I don’t care. It’s not going to change my decisions. It’s not going to change your placement on the card. Until you step up your game and actually become a player you will remain the utility player I want you to be.
That’s what you’ve earned.
You see Steve you call yourself the Face of the Franchise but I prove I’m the Best in the World. I was proving it while I was away from IWF and I proved it in IWF. I won the Heir to the Throne. I won the Imperial Championship. Twice. I’ve faced and beaten almost every legend this company has. I work constantly to prepare myself to beat the ones I haven’t. I am in constant preparation for the next challenge because I understand if I don’t work to keep to my position someone will work to take it.
You’re not stepping into this match to prove you’re better than me, you just want to win. You don’t care how that happens. You’ll steal a win, fake an injury, hell I wouldn’t be surprised if you paid a family member to fake a heart attack at ring side just to distract the referee.
But me?
I want to defeat you. I want to prove I am every bit as good as I say I am. I want you to know without a shadow of a doubt that Cable Arcane is the best professional wrestler alive today and you don’t even come close to matching up.
I want you to know I’m better than you.
I’m a better man.
I’m a better professional wrestler.
I’m. Better. Than. You.
No sleep. No rest. I’ll do whatever it takes to be the best.
Well howdy there pardner.