Post by Diamond Steele on Feb 29, 2016 4:05:39 GMT
Another week goes by and yet another match in which I find myself on the losing side of things.
Honestly I don’t know how I should feel about it because while I did lose my last few matches it’s not like I was the one that got pinned or submitted in the match. It was the likes of Emma that ended up getting the short end of the stick, and she was the one that lost those matches for me.
But at the end of the day I am not here to make excuses on why a match didn’t go in my favour or not. When people look back at the history books they will see that I was on the losing side of things and in today’s wrestling world that seems to be the only thing that matters.
I am tired of being a loser, and I am tired of not being good enough to compete with the best Diamonds in the company.
I was one of the original Diamonds in this company and if you look back at those history books you will see that I possess the worst record in this company. The little English girl who really didn’t amount to anything, and as I was on a steady downward spiral into dropping the ball again and again.
There were others who knew what it meant to rise up. That had what it take to take their talents to the next level and become something great.
I am talking about the likes of Jessica Reed, Amber Richards, and Eternity. Women who were among the original Diamonds when this company started up, and look at them now. They are either the greatest to have ever stepped inside of an IWF ring or have been a multiple champion winning the top belt in this company.
And then there’s me who hasn’t had a stable career who didn’t do enough to actually maintain her spot on the roster, and while almost all of the mainstay originals have been able to muster up some momentum and have managed to accomplished something in their time here. There’s me who has been left in the dust.
Where did I go wrong?
Why does everyone around seem to surpass me, and what can I do to change that?
When I left this company the last time I idolized Amber Richards. She was the fighting champion from England who took down everyone that stood in her way and when I returned her sister was the one taking down everyone. While everyone has been moving themselves up the ladder. I seem to have a difficult time making any ground.
Well I am absolutely tired of it!
I am tired of not being good enough and being at a point where I could taste winning a championship but not actually doing it.
First it was Avery winning her debut match over me two weeks ago.
And then it was Shea beating me once again.
I am getting sick and tired of it all!
I have conquered the musical world but now it’s time to finally show that I can make it in the wrestling world. I will be damned if I get denied the chance to ascend once again.
Shea I love you so much and that’s something that won’t change. You are my best friend. You are an awesome wrestler, and I fully believe in your ability as a wrestler but the truth of the reality is that you have something around your waist that I want more than anything right now, and I long to have that title.
At Danger Zone you better brace yourself because this Siren is going to get what she wants and she doesn’t care if she has to go through her best friend to get it. Danger Zone will be my night no matter what and I hope you bring the same fight that I plan to bring because I promise I won’t hold anything back…
Honestly I don’t know how I should feel about it because while I did lose my last few matches it’s not like I was the one that got pinned or submitted in the match. It was the likes of Emma that ended up getting the short end of the stick, and she was the one that lost those matches for me.
But at the end of the day I am not here to make excuses on why a match didn’t go in my favour or not. When people look back at the history books they will see that I was on the losing side of things and in today’s wrestling world that seems to be the only thing that matters.
I am tired of being a loser, and I am tired of not being good enough to compete with the best Diamonds in the company.
I was one of the original Diamonds in this company and if you look back at those history books you will see that I possess the worst record in this company. The little English girl who really didn’t amount to anything, and as I was on a steady downward spiral into dropping the ball again and again.
There were others who knew what it meant to rise up. That had what it take to take their talents to the next level and become something great.
I am talking about the likes of Jessica Reed, Amber Richards, and Eternity. Women who were among the original Diamonds when this company started up, and look at them now. They are either the greatest to have ever stepped inside of an IWF ring or have been a multiple champion winning the top belt in this company.
And then there’s me who hasn’t had a stable career who didn’t do enough to actually maintain her spot on the roster, and while almost all of the mainstay originals have been able to muster up some momentum and have managed to accomplished something in their time here. There’s me who has been left in the dust.
Where did I go wrong?
Why does everyone around seem to surpass me, and what can I do to change that?
When I left this company the last time I idolized Amber Richards. She was the fighting champion from England who took down everyone that stood in her way and when I returned her sister was the one taking down everyone. While everyone has been moving themselves up the ladder. I seem to have a difficult time making any ground.
Well I am absolutely tired of it!
I am tired of not being good enough and being at a point where I could taste winning a championship but not actually doing it.
First it was Avery winning her debut match over me two weeks ago.
And then it was Shea beating me once again.
I am getting sick and tired of it all!
I have conquered the musical world but now it’s time to finally show that I can make it in the wrestling world. I will be damned if I get denied the chance to ascend once again.
Shea I love you so much and that’s something that won’t change. You are my best friend. You are an awesome wrestler, and I fully believe in your ability as a wrestler but the truth of the reality is that you have something around your waist that I want more than anything right now, and I long to have that title.
At Danger Zone you better brace yourself because this Siren is going to get what she wants and she doesn’t care if she has to go through her best friend to get it. Danger Zone will be my night no matter what and I hope you bring the same fight that I plan to bring because I promise I won’t hold anything back…
Tampa Bay, Florida
Off Camera
Steele-Warren Household
After weeks of being on the road traveling to various wrestling cities. After weeks of endless preparation for Kate’s biggest concert yet the Warrens were finally back at their Tampa house and it was time for them to get back to what they wanted to do, and work on adopting that little girl that they saw in the Toronto orphanage. Kate sat at the table with her blue hair flowing as Teddy walked into the living room as he sat down next to his wife and gave her a kiss on the lips.
Teddy: I am so proud of you babe… I can’t believe we sold out the Garden.
Kate: It was such an amazing feeling… I just wished my wrestling career could be as good as my musical one.
Teddy: Don’t worry about it… You will get there in time.
Kate offers a long sigh as she looks deeply into her husband’s eyes.
Kate: How long do I have to honestly wait for?! I been in IWF since it started and I haven’t gotten anywhere. You saw what Shea did to me on her first night with the company. You saw what Avery did in her first night. It’s starting to get irritating.
Teddy: Irritating that you are losing to people who are hungry to advance their wrestling career?!
Kate: Well what about me?! I want to advance mine as well.
Teddy nods his head in agreement as he looks back at his wife.
Teddy: I know you do but you also have a musical career and you are off doing a million different things outside of the wrestling ring. That’s the main difference between you and the rest of them. They are focused solely on wrestling and nothing but that. You on the other hand do so much and it might be hard to focus at times.
Kate: I guess but I want good stuff to actually to happen for me.
Teddy: Kate we are about to adopt a little girl. It doesn’t get any better than that. You are about to journey towards motherhood and nothing can compare to that right?
Kate: I guess not… I just wish the damn case worker would get here already. I just want this case study to be over with.
Teddy: It’s going to go well… Don’t worry I promise there’s nothing to worry about.
All of a sudden the doorbell begins to ring and that’s when Teddy gets up and sprints over to the door. He swings it open proudly as he looks at the woman in front of her.
Female: Hi I am Mrs. Clarkson and I am here to do the case study for the adoption.
Teddy: Sure… Why don’t you make your way to the living room. That’s where you can find my wife.
Teddy leads the woman to the living room and that’s when Kate rises up out of the sofa to shake the woman’s hand. The caseworker stares at Kate’s hair before they both take a seat.
Mrs. Clarkson: that’s an interesting choice for a hair color.
Kate: Well I am in a punk rock band so it fits.
Mrs Clarkson: Oh I see.
She says before jotting something down. Kate sighed as she looked at Todd who shrugged his shoulders in return. This was going to be a long day.
Well Shea we are going to have our long awaited rematch. I find it amusing that it wasn’t that long when the two of us were fighting one another back at Diamonds Are Forever. We really weren’t fighting for anything at the time. The only thing on the line was respect and I think we both earned each other’s respect after the performance that we gave.
It was a match that won’t be forgotten and we gave everyone in the arena and watching all over the world at what the Diamonds brought to the table. The battle of Ireland taking it to England. It was so amazing to be on a PPV again and I almost forgot the thrill of the excitement of standing in a ring while thousands of people watch you on such a huge stage.
Yes this is coming from a rocker who gets to perform in various venues across the world but wrestling has always been different. There’s just something different about stepping inside of the ring and trying to prove you are the superior athlete.
As much as I admire you and respect you as a best friend would there is a part of me that didn’t like the end result of that match. A part of me who knows that a mere millisecond is what determined you as the winner of the match and me as the loser, and it’s something that doesn’t really sit that well with me.
I didn’t jump into wrestling for the fame or the fortune. My love of music could bring me fame if I really wanted it too but I wrestle because I have always been taught to fight and I want to be the very best at it. How do you think I feel when I see all of these other women passing me by?
How do you think it makes me feel to have watched you win the title and deep down I wanted it to be me Shea.
Like I said earlier I respect what you have done but please understand my frustration of not being good enough, of never amounting to anything in this company.
When you made your debut on PPV and defeated me in your first match on this roster it completely devastated me. To the point where I didn’t know if I would ever be good enough but you never let me dwelled on it because you were there to pick me up when I was feeling down. You were there for me Shea and I appreciate everything you have ever done for me.
Honestly I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have someone like you in my life.
In our first PPV match we were simply fighting for the love of the sport and now look at us now. We are in the limelight. We are fighting for the right to be champion, and although you are coming off some great showings as of late.
I believe this is my time, and through hell or highwater I won’t rest until I am finally holding gold around my waist. It sounds tough having to go through my best friend to get what I want but I love the challenge and in wrestling there are going to be moments like this that will either mold us or break us. I believe this is going to be a real character builder and I am ready to finally take my step among the greats in the company.
This story of being denied has been three years in the making but it’s about time I finally do what I had set out to do since this company first started and that’s become a champion.
You might have won the battles in the past Shea but at Danger Zone I win the war. At Danger Zone I walk away as a champion and I won’t be denied.
You ready to hear me sing? Are you ready to follow that Siren’s Song to your demise?
By the end of it you might just find yourself Shipwrecked. Good luck and I wish you well but I am coming for you babe and I don’t plan to look back.
Well howdy there pardner.