Sail.

[Rob Diamond]

You need me…

You may not know it…

You may not accept it…

You may not believe it…

But you need me to save you from yourselves…

In my absence you have grown weak…

Feeble…

Complacent…

Your killer instincts washed away and forgotten…

You need me to save you before it is too late…

You need me…

And so I am here…

Together we will learn to live again…

We will learn to love again…

We will learn to love the pain…

The blood shed…

The sheer horror of our own inner demons…

We will love it together…

Walking hand in hand through the gates of Hell…

Forever and always…

Together…

Every day was a little bit harder, a little bit longer, a little bit more grueling to deal with. The lie of his life was slowly ripping him to pieces with every waking moment and when he did sleep all he could see was the darkness hidden away inside of him…

He wanted to let it out.

He needed to let it out.

He’d tried to be good, to be someone else, to be someone new, different and all around better. He’d tried to live an honest life, to love his wife, to take care of their children together but every time he looked at her now he wanted to strangle the life from her lungs…

His “daughter’s” laughter was no longer sweet and innocent to his ears instead it was akin to the shrieking howl of a banshee.

His “son’s” insatiable need to be attached to his hip had gone from adorable to disgusting and every time his grubby little fingers touched his granite hard skin he shuddered.

He wanted to be free of this life, this lie that he had created for himself. He wanted to once again feel the warmth of another man’s blood upon his skin. The sweet smell of a blood stained canvas. The feel of bones as they bend and break in his bare hands…

He missed the simple brutality of who he used to be…

Of who he really is…

“Ethan honey, are you coming to bed soon?”

His wife’s screeching voice pierced his ear drums like an arrow. She waited for him in the bed room, dressed in her flannel night gown reading a good book, hoping to fall asleep in the arms of her knight like she’d done every night for the last six months.

His nails ground against the porcelain counter top of the bathroom sink as he tried to find the strength to endure one more day of this nightmare but as he looked at his own reflection in the mirror he knew he couldn’t do it anymore…

He couldn’t keep lying to himself…

He couldn’t restrain the darkness anymore.

“Ethan?”

Almost as if someone flipped a light switch inside his brain his skin went cold, his eyes went black, the darkness seeped out from every pore and covered him once again.

He felt like himself…

He looked at her now with a cold regard, like a predator analyzing it’s prey. She looked up at him with a wry smile, happy to see that he was finally coming to bed, unaware that the man she loves is no longer here, she may be looking at his face, at his form but he no longer exists…

“Ethan, are you ok?”

He reached out for her like Hawk snapping a mouse up off the grassy floor, her throat in his hands squeezing her wind pipe closed, the sheer horror in her eyes brought a devilish smile to his face.

“That is NOT my name!”

Like a discarded children’s toy he threw her from the bed and against the wall. Tears immediately began to fall from her eyes like a tropical storm. He heard the children running up the hall to see what had happened and couldn’t hide the smile on his face when they looked upon their fallen mother.

“Mommy?”

They looked to him next like a pair of scared puppies, wonder and horror mixed in their faces. He said nothing to them as he passed, his presence sending shivers up and down their spines as their happy little world came crumbling down.

This lie had run it’s course…

It was now time to return to his life.

To spread his gospel of pain once more.

It is time to go home.

One by one like little ducks you will line up…

One by one you will follow me…

Some will trip…

Some will stumble…

Most will fall…

All except those who accept my love…

Will fall…

I have come to you as a man…

I have come to you as GOD…

I have given you the tools you need to survive in this world…

It is up to you to listen…

To follow…

To try your best to keep up…

I can not live your life for you…

I can only guide you…

Show you…

Whether you accept the salvation I am offering…

Is up to you…

My beautiful children…

I only wish to see you happy…

Healthy…

And loved…

I only wish to care for you…

In the manner which you deserve…

I will save you from yourselves…

One way…

Or the other…

Even if I have to kill you…

That is how much I love you…

So when we stand together…

United…

In the Roulette…

Know that I strike you down with love…

And through your sacrifice…

We will all live again…

Immortal…

In Heaven…

Bare witness my children…

GOD HAS RETURNED…

And I am love.