Post by Alicia Lukas on Apr 16, 2017 14:10:14 GMT
Off Camera
Atlanta Georgia-7 years ago.
“Fuck, no no no…”
Alicia’s voice shook with laboured breaths. Her bare feet felt cold on the tiled floor of the bathroom. She sat on the edge of the bath, her arms wrapped around her stomach squeezing hard, she rocked back and forth, her eyes fixated on the floor as she felt the object in her hand poke against her ribs.
Her eyes stayed on the floor, they blurred as they filled with tears. The defined black lines in between the eggshell tiles fazed out and mixed together. She let out a small whimper, and kept her eyes shut as the tears rolled down her cheeks. The first few got to her chin and slowly dropped off and hit the floor.
Alicia tried to calm herself down as she continued rocking back and forth and shaking, her breaths slowed her heart rate followed. Her hands moved and she looked down at the object in her hands, hoping and pleading for it to be different, for it to have changed, her eyes begging it to be different. She threw it onto the bathroom counter and buried her face in her hands.
She shook her head mumbling under her breath. Before looking over and finding his straight razor. Her hands trembled as she reached for it. It was heavy, old, but sharp. Alicia flicked it open and stared at the blade almost mesmerised by it. She got to her feet and looked down at her bare wrists and then down at the bathtub. She seemed to stare and stand still for hours but it would have only been minutes.
Alicia snapped out of it and turned catching a glimpse of the object on the bench. A pregnancy test. A positive pregnancy test. Her jaw clenched as did her hand around the old wooden handle of the straight razor. She looked up into the mirror seeing herself. Her eyes red and puffy from crying, Her make up a mess.
Alicia pressed the cold steel against her skin, a trickle of blood dripping to the floor. She took a deep breath in and suddenly dropped the razor with a wail. She fell to the floor and cried, weeping openly. She heard the footsteps, she knew he was coming. Ronnie had heard her. She grabbed the razor and threw it up near the sink getting to her feet as she frantically moved things. The door opened.
“Violet what the fuck is this?...why the fuck are you crying?” She adjusted her dress and smiled wide, bright and completely fake. Her hand holding out the test. Ronnie’s eyes trailed down to it, he studied it and the look on his face didn’t change. “Oh...father will be happy…” Alicia’s jaw trembled, he showed no emotion, no happiness...nothing..just a monotone voice and a cold stare.
“But darling aren’t you happy?....you’re going to be a fath-” A loud sickening thud caused Alicia to double over. Ronnie’s fist buried itself into her midsection, Alicia dropped to her knees and coughed and spluttered managing only a few words. “Th-the ba-bay…” He stared down at her and shook his head. “Watch your mouth if you want to keep it...if you lose it...well...we’ll just have to make another….”
Off Camera
Lukas family home. Atlanta Georgia. A year ago.
Daisie and Alicia sat on a couch in the parlour of Alicia’s mothers home. Daisie was dressed in a lovely purple dress with black accents, Alicia on the other hand much to Daisie’s dismay was wearing a pair of jeans and a singlet top with pink cupcakes over her...assets.
Daisie sat like a proper woman, her back straight, her legs crossed under the chair and her hands sitting on her lead leg. Alicia slumped in the chair, her legs spread, and her arms folded. Daisie looked over and rolled her eyes as Alicia and Daisie’s mothers sat opposite them. Both dressed similar to Daisie and sitting the same.
“Well this is fun…..” Alicia spat with more than a hint of sarcasm. Daisie turned and shook her head. “Oh Alicia you’re so funny..mama Mrs Lukas, we just had to come home and see you.” Daisie’s mother gave her a small smile and a nod as Alicia’s mother mumbled under her breath. Alicia raised an eyebrow and looked up.
“Sorry mama what was that?..I couldn’t quite hear you” She clears her throat and sits up straight with a shake of her head ignoring Alicia and instead speaking to Daisie ”Daisie my dear I would of much rather you brought that dashing young man of yours...Austin wasn’t it?’”
Alicia rolls her eyes and sits forward, Daisie is quick to act as she slides forward again. “Alic-” “Violet...her name is Violet.” They both go silent, this time Alicia can’t stand it getting to her feet throwing her hands in the air. “D, this is shit, I’m sorry but fuck y’all i’m out…” She turns and heads towards the door, her mother gets to her feet and yells in anger startling the help and Daisie and her own mother.
“That’s right Violet, walk away like you did to Ronald and your sons….how are Rory and Ryan?...do you care?....”
Alicia stopped in her tracks and sneered before turning around, Daisie had gotten to her feet and stood in front of her. “Nah boo...calm….she tryin ta git a rise…” She winks and nods, Alicia nods back understanding before looking over at her mother with a wild grin. “My boys are fine...mother. They’re with their violent, abusive father who beat me everyday, but he won’t hurt them...they’re his boys…”
There was an air in the room of shock and awe. Daisie’s eyebrows raised as Alicia just smirked and shook her head. “Oh an anotha thing bitch. I got a new man. I would introduce ya, but ya dun know wha a fuckin real man looks like….” She smiles and grabs Daisie’s hand as the two make their way out of the room and the door.
On Camera
A small humming noise can be heard as Alicia Lukas sits dangling her legs off the side of a ring in a warehouse. A black snapback baseball cap sits flipped backwards on her head as her long golden blond locks flow down her shoulders.
“The first one done. You know they say it’s always the first victory that seems the hardest. The first time you step foot in the ring of a new company is kind of like a first date. You want to put your best foot forward. Be the best you can be to impress the eyes on you and the ears that will hear about you.”
“And honestly I feel as if I did that. In a match against a warrior woman who dwarfed me I stood tall and was able to get the victory. See I don’t want you to buy in to her little speech from last week. See there seems to be some kind of misconception about me that I feed on the misery of others. Or that I’m “Evil”. Evil?...how?...because I believe I’m the best?....”
“Because I stand above all?. I don’t believe every other woman here to be beneath me, in fact I see many great athletes and wrestlers. Name’s yet to be given voice, others still in their prime….”
“I don’t wish evil upon them. I don’t wish to end careers or give them pain. All I want is to prove that I am the best. In that proof you’ll see arrogance, you’ll see a cocky nature few can stomach and many will hate. But you all, like Astrid will know me and know my name.”
Alicia chuckles and drops down to her feet standing next to the ring, her left hand holding onto the bottom rope.
“And what a great chance I have this week. See not only do I have a singles match against Fiona McFly, I have a chance against Fiona and twelve other women in an over the top rope elimination battle royal. Some older faces, some new ones but all of us ready to prove that we are the best and ready to claim the final spot in the 2017 Iron Maiden match….”
“A chance at greatness, a chance to get into a match that can elevate you and pull you to a higher standard. From women like Keira Hunter and Maxine Valentine who are looking at making their names to Ashley Mastrangelo and Gabriella Luna who want to expand their names this match is stacked with talent….”
“There’s only one problem…”
“As good as you are, as devastating as someone like Max Valentine might be, or as fast as Gabriella Luna….I’m simply...better. I gave you all a taste last week, I hope you were watching. See you need to learn about me, you need to study and teach yourselves like I’m trying to against you all. I’m a student of the game, a woman who learns from every challenge and every obstacle to get better. As good as I am I know a loss can happen, nothing is guaranteed. If I do happen to be thrown out….well...I’ll use it as a true experience and eliminate those mistakes….”
“This is what I do...this is what I have always done and I want in that Iron Maiden. Winning that would be amazing but having the chance to face and learn from some of the best this company has to offer?....”
“Well...that’s the real prize isn’t it?...”
“The real purpose is for us to get better, to build a division and the championships. Although some of you seem obsessed with just wanting to get your hands on Charity Crowne. Now, I wasn’t here for the Diamonds in the rough tournament. I understand the sentiment behind it...I understand the idea….but I didn’t need it….”
“I needed to come in and do what I did. I walked in, I signed a contract, I got put in a match and I showed Miss Hall that while she is a warrior and a physical specimen, a woman who could become a champion and a force if she simply let go of her morals….that I am the alpha fucking bitch of IWF. Any women's division I become a part of will up their game or perish….”
“I will run through this division test every single one of you with what I do and what I’m capable of and it was so incredibly nice of IWF to streamline the process and line a lot of you up in one match for me to bowl over….”
Alicia laughs to herself and pushes away from the bottom rope stepping forward. Her arms fold over her black and red baseball style FFDP shirt
“But really, to all of you I wish you luck, I’m gunning for it, I want it and I’m ready to beat the shit out of any of you and toss you to the floor. But whoever wins needs to be ready for that Iron Maiden match…”
“I know I will be….”
Well howdy there pardner.