Post by Shea O'Hara on May 14, 2017 20:32:05 GMT
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9th May, 2017 - Low
Do you ever feel really down for no obvious apparent reason? That’s how I feel right now, right this very second and I almost feel guilty for it. Last night I went out to that ring and tore the house down with my Shield Sister in one of the toughest, hardest, and best matches I’ve ever had in my career, and somehow, some way, I walked away victorious….I earned my shot at the Shield Maiden championship. I earned my match at Night of Immortals. At Eternity.
At redemption.
Yet I sit here, and I feel so alone. I feel so numb, like I could slip away and not a single person would notice or care. Maybe there’d be a passing comment of “Oh hey, Shea didn’t show up for work this week, oh well, we’ll find someone else” and that’s the last time my name would ever be uttered. For the life of me I can’t put my finger on why I feel this way, but I do. I feel miserable, and when you get to the bare bones of it all….when you start to feel guilty about the way you feel, when you feel sad, or depressed?
That’s when you know something is wrong.
May is Mental Health Awareness month, and I’m not exactly the poster girl for mental health. I’m super high and energetic one minute, low the next, maybe I’m bi-polar and I just haven’t been diagnosed? Maybe everything around me is just really starting to grind at me. Like the fact that Teddy doesn’t seem to want me around anymore. I don’t know about any of you, but have you ever lived somewhere where someone doesn’t want you there? There’s something about the air in an environment like that, it changes, it’s not quite toxic, but it changes the way everyone talks, the way they act…..like we’re all walking on fucking eggshells.
I miss my home.
I miss my Ma and Da.
I miss Warren.
But who am I to complain, right? I’m a celebrity, I’ve got it made! I’ve got myself a brand new friend in the form of Astrid Hall, a great trainer in the form of Emma Danielson, and Kate has always had my back. I have a headline match at Night of the Immortals, and I should be happy, I should be proud of myself. I get to fight Eternity on the grandest stage IWF has possible….but maybe that’s just it? Maybe everything about how I’m feeling right now? This loneliness, this coldness, this almost sense of abandonment….
It’s all because of her.
Current Mood - Miserable
Listening to - "Dressed in Decay" by CKY
{We open up on the house of Teddy and Kate Steele and there’s some music playing from one of the rooms. As the camera pans around we realise it’s Shea O’Hara’s room. She’s dancing about in one of her own IWF t-shirts and some real short pyjama shorts singing along to the new Paramore album. She nods her heads from side to side, her hair flopping wildly, and we spot Will Fennell laying on Shea’s bed, fully clothed mind you, with his hands behind his head watching Shea dance, but with his nose wrinkled a little.}
Shea: Come on, how can you not like this?
Will: Man, dis is depressin’!
{Shea stops dancing, and pouts a little as she stops to listen to the lyrics, ignoring the music and her smile that was plastered across her face doesn’t return.}
Shea: I mean you, you’re right….but she always has a way of singing those lyrics in a way that doesn’t bum you out, y’know?
Will: Naw man, I don’t listen ta shit that bums me out.
Shea: No, you just want to have some bitches on your lap and bling, right?
{Will throws one of Shea’s stuffed toys at her, which makes her laugh, before she turns to pick it up and throw it back, but Will has picked up another and soon a teddy bear war begins between the two of them throwing them at each other.}
Will: Ya break my music down ta it’s basic shit an it becomes as insultin’ as I am ta yours, y’know?
Shea: So you can insult my “punk noisy shit” but I can’t insult yours?
Will: Naw! You’re supposed ta be the eclectic one. You’re supposed ta be better.
{The two of them move closer together, and Shea kneels on the bed, about to put her arms around Will when Shea’s bedroom door bursts open and in storms Kate Steele.}
Kate: Holy shit is that the new Para…..more….?
{She stops mid sentence as Shea pulls away from Will, and he kind of does the same, rolling his eyes a little at Kate.}
Kate: Umm, sorry. I didn’t know there was anyone else in here.
{She opens her eyes wide and half nods towards Shea, who is just about to say something when Teddy shouts from the hallway.}
Teddy: For crying out loud, can you turn that shit down!?
{Teddy comes to the door, annoyed that once again, Shea is being loud and disturbing whatever it was he was doing. However, before anyone can react, Will is on his feet, between Shea and Teddy. His shoulders are squared, and his head cocked to the side a little.}
Will: D’ere a problem bro?
{There’s a moment of tension as the two dudes eye each other up, Will cracks his knuckles, and both women stand there a little in shock, before Teddy throws his hands in the air.}
Teddy: No man, it’s too early to deal with this…..can you please just turn it down a bit?
{He leans to the side looking past Will to Shea, but Will steps in front of his line of sight. This prompts Shea to step in front of Will and nod her head, turning to Will.}
Shea: I think it’s time I got dressed, and then we can go get ourselves some breakfast, yeah?
Will: Sure ginge….less do dat.
{Will says it with softness to his voice, but his gaze doesn’t leave Teddy who shakes his head and turns to leave, followed by Kate who rushes after him, shouting after him about what just happened. Wills face wrinkles once more, before turning to watch Shea rush around her room to grab some clothes for the day, rubbing a hand across his jaw as he does so.}
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14th May, 2017 - Next Level
Last week everyone was on the edge of their seat. You could feel it in the arena, as much as you could backstage. The Shield Maiden match between Eternity, and Alicia Lukas was one for the ages, truly….without meaning to blow smoke up anyones ass. It was arguably the match of the night, and there was this glimmer of…..hope? I’m not sure, that Lukas was going to be the lady to finally dethrone Eternity from her reign as Shield Maiden. Her record breaking, shattering, and destroying reign…..
I’m probably in the vast minority that is glad it didn’t happen.
Now, please let me explain, because I mean you absolutely no disrespect at all Alicia. Since you’ve come into IWF you’ve been on fire, you’ve been kicking ass left, right, and center….and forget taking names, because they haven’t been worth it. You earned your way into the Iron Maiden and hell, you were probably the bookies dark horse to win it. The fates, though, saw otherwise and decided to open Pandoras box once and for all. Now she’s off to fight for the Diamonds Championship and me? Well, earlier last week I earned the right to go to Night of the Immortals to fight for the Shield Maiden, and had you defeated Eternity, that would have been you. As much as I would like to get in the ring with you….there was someone else I wanted that much more….and it needed to be like this, it needed to be on the grand stage.
Redemption wasn’t something I came back for, but when it was laid out in front of me? I grabbed that bitch with two hands.
I want to take on Eternity, I want to take her Shield Maiden championship. I want to be the one who ends her reign, who ends her terror, who finally puts a stop to the chaos and violence that she has wrought over the division. I’ve had to sit on the sidelines and watch as contender after contender was just thrown to the wayside while she laughed, leaving broken and destroyed Diamonds behind. Not you though Alicia…..
Not you.
No, you’re different, and that’s been obvious from the beginning. You’re a new breed of Diamond, tougher, stronger, and smarter. You’re new here Alicia, but you don’t act like it, and I don’t mean that in a way as in to say you’re arrogant, not at all. You carry yourself with a sense of confidence, and pride. You carry yourself the way the Diamonds Division should be carried and I have nothing but respect for you. In fact I watched the way you went to war with Eternity, how you took everything, and how you dealt with her….and I learned, I took notes, and I knew that being in the ring with you would be MY honour, not yours.
I’m looking forward to this match Alicia Lukas, because you, just like Astrid Hall are going to be a great test for me. Losing to you won’t hurt my stock, so to speak, I lose to a freakin’ freight train….but if I can pull out another whopper of a victory? It only pushes my momentum towards Night of Immortals, and Eternity. Don’t think though, for one second, that I’m looking past you Alicia. You’re dangerous, you’re fast, you’re one of a kind….and one way or another, win or lose, I’m going to learn so much from our match. I’m going to see the woman who took Eternity to the brink up close and personal, and I’m going to take it all and move forward, that is all I can do.
Learn. Adapt. Evolve.
I’ll see you in the ring Alicia.
Let’s rock this joint.
Current Mood - Determined
Listening to - "Hard Times" by Paramore
9th May, 2017 - Low
Do you ever feel really down for no obvious apparent reason? That’s how I feel right now, right this very second and I almost feel guilty for it. Last night I went out to that ring and tore the house down with my Shield Sister in one of the toughest, hardest, and best matches I’ve ever had in my career, and somehow, some way, I walked away victorious….I earned my shot at the Shield Maiden championship. I earned my match at Night of Immortals. At Eternity.
At redemption.
Yet I sit here, and I feel so alone. I feel so numb, like I could slip away and not a single person would notice or care. Maybe there’d be a passing comment of “Oh hey, Shea didn’t show up for work this week, oh well, we’ll find someone else” and that’s the last time my name would ever be uttered. For the life of me I can’t put my finger on why I feel this way, but I do. I feel miserable, and when you get to the bare bones of it all….when you start to feel guilty about the way you feel, when you feel sad, or depressed?
That’s when you know something is wrong.
May is Mental Health Awareness month, and I’m not exactly the poster girl for mental health. I’m super high and energetic one minute, low the next, maybe I’m bi-polar and I just haven’t been diagnosed? Maybe everything around me is just really starting to grind at me. Like the fact that Teddy doesn’t seem to want me around anymore. I don’t know about any of you, but have you ever lived somewhere where someone doesn’t want you there? There’s something about the air in an environment like that, it changes, it’s not quite toxic, but it changes the way everyone talks, the way they act…..like we’re all walking on fucking eggshells.
I miss my home.
I miss my Ma and Da.
I miss Warren.
But who am I to complain, right? I’m a celebrity, I’ve got it made! I’ve got myself a brand new friend in the form of Astrid Hall, a great trainer in the form of Emma Danielson, and Kate has always had my back. I have a headline match at Night of the Immortals, and I should be happy, I should be proud of myself. I get to fight Eternity on the grandest stage IWF has possible….but maybe that’s just it? Maybe everything about how I’m feeling right now? This loneliness, this coldness, this almost sense of abandonment….
It’s all because of her.
Current Mood - Miserable
Listening to - "Dressed in Decay" by CKY
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{We open up on the house of Teddy and Kate Steele and there’s some music playing from one of the rooms. As the camera pans around we realise it’s Shea O’Hara’s room. She’s dancing about in one of her own IWF t-shirts and some real short pyjama shorts singing along to the new Paramore album. She nods her heads from side to side, her hair flopping wildly, and we spot Will Fennell laying on Shea’s bed, fully clothed mind you, with his hands behind his head watching Shea dance, but with his nose wrinkled a little.}
Shea: Come on, how can you not like this?
Will: Man, dis is depressin’!
{Shea stops dancing, and pouts a little as she stops to listen to the lyrics, ignoring the music and her smile that was plastered across her face doesn’t return.}
Shea: I mean you, you’re right….but she always has a way of singing those lyrics in a way that doesn’t bum you out, y’know?
Will: Naw man, I don’t listen ta shit that bums me out.
Shea: No, you just want to have some bitches on your lap and bling, right?
{Will throws one of Shea’s stuffed toys at her, which makes her laugh, before she turns to pick it up and throw it back, but Will has picked up another and soon a teddy bear war begins between the two of them throwing them at each other.}
Will: Ya break my music down ta it’s basic shit an it becomes as insultin’ as I am ta yours, y’know?
Shea: So you can insult my “punk noisy shit” but I can’t insult yours?
Will: Naw! You’re supposed ta be the eclectic one. You’re supposed ta be better.
{The two of them move closer together, and Shea kneels on the bed, about to put her arms around Will when Shea’s bedroom door bursts open and in storms Kate Steele.}
Kate: Holy shit is that the new Para…..more….?
{She stops mid sentence as Shea pulls away from Will, and he kind of does the same, rolling his eyes a little at Kate.}
Kate: Umm, sorry. I didn’t know there was anyone else in here.
{She opens her eyes wide and half nods towards Shea, who is just about to say something when Teddy shouts from the hallway.}
Teddy: For crying out loud, can you turn that shit down!?
{Teddy comes to the door, annoyed that once again, Shea is being loud and disturbing whatever it was he was doing. However, before anyone can react, Will is on his feet, between Shea and Teddy. His shoulders are squared, and his head cocked to the side a little.}
Will: D’ere a problem bro?
{There’s a moment of tension as the two dudes eye each other up, Will cracks his knuckles, and both women stand there a little in shock, before Teddy throws his hands in the air.}
Teddy: No man, it’s too early to deal with this…..can you please just turn it down a bit?
{He leans to the side looking past Will to Shea, but Will steps in front of his line of sight. This prompts Shea to step in front of Will and nod her head, turning to Will.}
Shea: I think it’s time I got dressed, and then we can go get ourselves some breakfast, yeah?
Will: Sure ginge….less do dat.
{Will says it with softness to his voice, but his gaze doesn’t leave Teddy who shakes his head and turns to leave, followed by Kate who rushes after him, shouting after him about what just happened. Wills face wrinkles once more, before turning to watch Shea rush around her room to grab some clothes for the day, rubbing a hand across his jaw as he does so.}
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14th May, 2017 - Next Level
Last week everyone was on the edge of their seat. You could feel it in the arena, as much as you could backstage. The Shield Maiden match between Eternity, and Alicia Lukas was one for the ages, truly….without meaning to blow smoke up anyones ass. It was arguably the match of the night, and there was this glimmer of…..hope? I’m not sure, that Lukas was going to be the lady to finally dethrone Eternity from her reign as Shield Maiden. Her record breaking, shattering, and destroying reign…..
I’m probably in the vast minority that is glad it didn’t happen.
Now, please let me explain, because I mean you absolutely no disrespect at all Alicia. Since you’ve come into IWF you’ve been on fire, you’ve been kicking ass left, right, and center….and forget taking names, because they haven’t been worth it. You earned your way into the Iron Maiden and hell, you were probably the bookies dark horse to win it. The fates, though, saw otherwise and decided to open Pandoras box once and for all. Now she’s off to fight for the Diamonds Championship and me? Well, earlier last week I earned the right to go to Night of the Immortals to fight for the Shield Maiden, and had you defeated Eternity, that would have been you. As much as I would like to get in the ring with you….there was someone else I wanted that much more….and it needed to be like this, it needed to be on the grand stage.
Redemption wasn’t something I came back for, but when it was laid out in front of me? I grabbed that bitch with two hands.
I want to take on Eternity, I want to take her Shield Maiden championship. I want to be the one who ends her reign, who ends her terror, who finally puts a stop to the chaos and violence that she has wrought over the division. I’ve had to sit on the sidelines and watch as contender after contender was just thrown to the wayside while she laughed, leaving broken and destroyed Diamonds behind. Not you though Alicia…..
Not you.
No, you’re different, and that’s been obvious from the beginning. You’re a new breed of Diamond, tougher, stronger, and smarter. You’re new here Alicia, but you don’t act like it, and I don’t mean that in a way as in to say you’re arrogant, not at all. You carry yourself with a sense of confidence, and pride. You carry yourself the way the Diamonds Division should be carried and I have nothing but respect for you. In fact I watched the way you went to war with Eternity, how you took everything, and how you dealt with her….and I learned, I took notes, and I knew that being in the ring with you would be MY honour, not yours.
I’m looking forward to this match Alicia Lukas, because you, just like Astrid Hall are going to be a great test for me. Losing to you won’t hurt my stock, so to speak, I lose to a freakin’ freight train….but if I can pull out another whopper of a victory? It only pushes my momentum towards Night of Immortals, and Eternity. Don’t think though, for one second, that I’m looking past you Alicia. You’re dangerous, you’re fast, you’re one of a kind….and one way or another, win or lose, I’m going to learn so much from our match. I’m going to see the woman who took Eternity to the brink up close and personal, and I’m going to take it all and move forward, that is all I can do.
Learn. Adapt. Evolve.
I’ll see you in the ring Alicia.
Let’s rock this joint.
Current Mood - Determined
Listening to - "Hard Times" by Paramore
Well howdy there pardner.