Post by Crystal Zdunich on May 15, 2017 4:49:27 GMT
Wow where should I even begin?
For starters I know that fighting Emma Danielson resulted yet in another lost for me but some reason that lost didn’t feel like all of the other ones. To me it didn’t matter what the end result was because by the end of the match hearing the roars of the crowd was enough to get me going. It had been a long time since the crowd gave me any forms of cheers.
This past year has been filled with the crowd just giving me all of their jeers because they hated my stuck up attitude. They hated the way I conducted myself in the ring, and they just flat out hated who I became. Deep down however there was always something about me that they adored, and I might not have come out with the win against Emma Danielson but I felt like I earned something in the process.
I earned their respect and to be honest it is a very good feeling. It’s beyond being good, it feels absolutely great and I want more of that. I want what they channeled for me on a consistent basis and I want to be the woman that they all came to see and are willing to buy endless merchandise for.
It has been a while since I was that woman in IWF but in all honesty I know I have the tools to get there, gaining their respect was merely the first step but keeping it up and building upon that is another. Don’t expect me to slow down now because even though it was a losing against Emma Danielson I was reminded of one key fact after that match.
We don’t wrestle to gain the fame or fortune. We wrestle because it’s the place where we could fuel our frustrations, it’s the place where we can let it all out so we don’t have to take it out on the loved ones in our personal life. It’s as simple as that.
One mistake against Emma cost me the entire match but I am not even going to sweat it because for the first time in a very long time I fully believe in the fact that I can bounce back from this. I can bounce back and get deep into the heart of the Diamonds division. After all what would the Diamonds division be if it didn’t have a Crystal to shine upon it.
But I don’t want to put myself in a position where I cause myself to brag and can’t deliver on my promises because that would just be me making the mistakes of my past. Instead I am just going to take things day by day and hope for the very best in the end.
The less I focus on being a champion and put more emphasis on bettering myself is the more that everything will just fall into place. After all bettering myself will result in everything going my way, but I do know this one thing.
Nothing will be able to stop this shine, nobody will stop me from having a true positive mental attitude. And getting my life on track.
That’s what this new journey is all about and I get it. You all have heard this before but in all honesty in the past I was merely going through the motions because I felt like the world of IWF had moved on past me. I was clawing at the very seems trying to do anything to stay in any title picture. Trying to stay relevant after all what’s a big time actress without having a big time role in the company she works for?!
She becomes less likely to lead and starts to become an extra, and isn’t even the star in her own movie. That’s what makes all of this different because right now I am learning a small concept of humility and nothing is too big or too small for me.
I am thankful to have a spot on the show and with the Diamonds division and the huge search for Diamonds that IWF just went through I know it might be hard to even find a place here. So that’s why I am taking things different. Fighting and wrestling for the sake of wrestling, and not worrying about what might be the outcome of the said journey.
As long as I am able to go out to that ring and pour my heart and soul into the ring doing what I love than that’s all that really matters.
Emma Danielson I know you and I fought a great match last week but if there is something I want to say to you. It would be the words thank you. Thank you for helping me see the light so that I could stand back on my feet.
Thank you for seeing me not as a lost cause but as a work in progress, and most of all thank you for opening my eyes. I won’t let you down and most of all I won’t let myself down.
This is about growth, this is about taking it to another level and I will do everything in my power to get there. So on Sacrifice I take my new found philosophy and put it into practice. I will learn how to crawl before I walk. Walk before I run, and most of all stand before I do anything.
I will be back on my feet and it won’t be long before I am soaring again. Just watch and see, the credits may have looked like they were rolling but deep down it’s only prepping you for the sequel. This film is not done and it will be continued. You can count on that fact…
Hollywood, California
On The Set
{For Crystal Millar it was another busy day on the set as she was in the middle of filming. Crystal was playing the role of a detective and the camera followed her as she slid across a car duke of hazards style. She seemed to be in hot pursuit and just as she was running about to catch the fleeing villain she was stopped in her tracks when somebody jumped out in front of her. That person who jumped in front of her was none other than Emma Danielson. Crystal tried to come to a screeching halt but the unexpected arrival of Emma caused Crystal to trip as she fell flat on her face. In the background the director could be scene getting extremely upset as he screamed out at the top of his lungs.}
Director: “CUT!!!!!!! We were almost there. Crystal you better talk to your friends remember no friends allowed on the set!”
{Crystal just sighs as she shakes her head in disgust before picking herself back up. She just slowly turns her attention over to Emma as she yells back at the director.}
Crystal: “Friends?! You mean we used to be friends! I don’t even know why she is either but I can guarantee you that she won’t be here this long. She was just on her way!”
{Crystal looks deeply into Emma’s eyes as she seems befuddled.}
Crystal: “Which reminds me why are you here on the set?! You shouldn’t really be here. I was in the middle of something!”
Emma: “I am sure that it could wait. Truth be told I came here to see you. Especially with the way that our match went, I just wanted to say that I am really proud of you.”
Crystal: “Proud of what exactly?! That I lost yet another match and am still trying to find a way to find my identity?! Look I see what you are trying to do here Emma but it’s not going to work. I flopped in that match with you. I proved to be nothing more than a shell of my former self and…”
Emma: “And that’s a ridiculous claim. I know you have been coming down on yourself for a very long time now. It just seems like you are constantly beating yourself up over and over again but truth be told you were amazing out there in that ring. Did you hear how the fans were cheering for you?! Did you see them clap for you, and how much they adored you?! Sure you might not have won but that doesn’t mean you were that bad.”
Crystal: “Horse shit I was bad and you know it.,”
Emma: “Crystal to be honest you aren’t bad at all. It’s just sometimes you don’t seem to be focused like you should be but that doesn’t make you bad. I just think you need a reminder of why you chose to wrestle.”
Crystal: “Reminder?!”
Emma: “Yes… I think you need to get back to the very basics of why you lace up the boots in the first place. What makes you want to go out to that ring and lay it all down. The only reason why I beat you is because I get to work with everybody down at development. Those girls down there are forcing me to keep in shape. You don’t think I sit on my ass why I help train the new wave of talent do you?!”
{Emma shakes her head.}
Emma: “Of course not it’s always a battle down there. It’s always about me busting my ass. Working hard to help them and in return they help me stay in the shape that I should be. That’s really the main difference between you and I. You have your movies, your albums, and do all of this extra stuff outside of the ring. I am not saying that what you do is a bad thing but you are all over the place. With me I am fully committed to wrestling and my mind is strictly on that.”
Crystal: “So what do you want from me Emma?!”
Emma: “I just want you to trust me. You missed our friendship?! So allow me to help you out and let’s give ourselves a chance to reconnect. Why don’t you come with me to developmental for a little bit. Watch the new wave of Diamonds wrestle. Maybe seeing them might inspire you a bit.”
Crystal: “I guess I could do that. It’s not like I would be losing anything.”
Emma: “And I think you should also talk to Mrs. Conway too… She has this habit of helping Diamonds in need. She’s not one to let her Diamonds really rot away and if you are willing to put in the effort I am sure she will do everything in her power to make sure that you reach the next level.”
Crystal: “You really think so?!”
Emma: “I know so… I know you might be hesitant because of your past with her but give it a try. I guarantee that.”
Crystal:[b/] “Fine I will give that a try… Sorry for everything Emma. The way I talked you down on Twitter and….”
Emma: “Don’t say anymore. It was helping you get back to the Crystal that we all want to see. I knew I had to answer that challenge. Come on I think you spent enough on the set let me buy you a drink first round is on me.”
{With that the two smile one another as they leave the set and we fade out on this image.}
Lizzy Dalmon when I look at you I honestly see a woman who is blinded by her own arrogance, by her money, and by her desire for greed. I really wish you would wash yourself clean of these evil traits before they become your own undoing. I know it seems weird for me to call you out on these things but truth be told the reason I can call you out on all of these things is because I was also worshipping these same idols.
Let me tell you from first hand experience that they won’t get you the things you want. It’s going to end up tearing you apart and in the long run it won’t really bring you the happiness that you are looking for. I must give you credit where credit is due though however because even though things may not be working out for you in the way that you wished it was. The truth of the reality is that you have had a much better career than me in IWF this year.
Your year for the most part has been going really well I must say. You found your way into getting into the Iron Maiden match, and even though you didn’t win you still had the opportunity to become the next biggest thing in the division. You had that chance to at least fight for the right to be on the biggest card of the year. You qualified for that opportunity and I was never even given the chance.
I never had the opportunity at all and because in some eyes I guess I really fell far from the grace of where I was at. To end last year I was pouring my heart on the line against Eternity and since then I really haven’t done much but I know for a fact that all of that is going to change.
Because I am willing to change.
I am making a change in my life so that I don’t follow in the same path over and over again looking for a new result. No I am seeking true change so I can better myself and in return it will better the division. I want the chance to grow and after losing all of these matches I know in order to really seek what I am after I need to get past you.
When we fought you humiliated me. You beat me with my finishing move, granted we do the same exact move, but you were a step ahead. You proved to be more hungry for it and it gave you a Shield Maiden Championship match.
Now I feel like the tides have turned and our roles have been reversed. After being left out in the dark for so long it’s time to find my way back to the light again. It’s time to fight for my spot, and I refuse to give it up to anybody else again.
This is my change, and success can’t be far away.
No more committing the same sins that you do on a daily basis. I am better than that and I don’t want to be that woman anymore because it didn’t get me anywhere. I rather focus on just being a wrestler first and foremost, and focusing everything on that.
Everything else will follow suit. This much I know. Who am I?!
I am Crystal Millar. I am your SILVER SCREEN QUEEN, AND IT’S ABOUT TIME YOU BOW BEFORE ME!
Nothing will deter me from going through with this change for I am the rose that simply refuses to wither away…
Good luck you will need it.
For starters I know that fighting Emma Danielson resulted yet in another lost for me but some reason that lost didn’t feel like all of the other ones. To me it didn’t matter what the end result was because by the end of the match hearing the roars of the crowd was enough to get me going. It had been a long time since the crowd gave me any forms of cheers.
This past year has been filled with the crowd just giving me all of their jeers because they hated my stuck up attitude. They hated the way I conducted myself in the ring, and they just flat out hated who I became. Deep down however there was always something about me that they adored, and I might not have come out with the win against Emma Danielson but I felt like I earned something in the process.
I earned their respect and to be honest it is a very good feeling. It’s beyond being good, it feels absolutely great and I want more of that. I want what they channeled for me on a consistent basis and I want to be the woman that they all came to see and are willing to buy endless merchandise for.
It has been a while since I was that woman in IWF but in all honesty I know I have the tools to get there, gaining their respect was merely the first step but keeping it up and building upon that is another. Don’t expect me to slow down now because even though it was a losing against Emma Danielson I was reminded of one key fact after that match.
We don’t wrestle to gain the fame or fortune. We wrestle because it’s the place where we could fuel our frustrations, it’s the place where we can let it all out so we don’t have to take it out on the loved ones in our personal life. It’s as simple as that.
One mistake against Emma cost me the entire match but I am not even going to sweat it because for the first time in a very long time I fully believe in the fact that I can bounce back from this. I can bounce back and get deep into the heart of the Diamonds division. After all what would the Diamonds division be if it didn’t have a Crystal to shine upon it.
But I don’t want to put myself in a position where I cause myself to brag and can’t deliver on my promises because that would just be me making the mistakes of my past. Instead I am just going to take things day by day and hope for the very best in the end.
The less I focus on being a champion and put more emphasis on bettering myself is the more that everything will just fall into place. After all bettering myself will result in everything going my way, but I do know this one thing.
Nothing will be able to stop this shine, nobody will stop me from having a true positive mental attitude. And getting my life on track.
That’s what this new journey is all about and I get it. You all have heard this before but in all honesty in the past I was merely going through the motions because I felt like the world of IWF had moved on past me. I was clawing at the very seems trying to do anything to stay in any title picture. Trying to stay relevant after all what’s a big time actress without having a big time role in the company she works for?!
She becomes less likely to lead and starts to become an extra, and isn’t even the star in her own movie. That’s what makes all of this different because right now I am learning a small concept of humility and nothing is too big or too small for me.
I am thankful to have a spot on the show and with the Diamonds division and the huge search for Diamonds that IWF just went through I know it might be hard to even find a place here. So that’s why I am taking things different. Fighting and wrestling for the sake of wrestling, and not worrying about what might be the outcome of the said journey.
As long as I am able to go out to that ring and pour my heart and soul into the ring doing what I love than that’s all that really matters.
Emma Danielson I know you and I fought a great match last week but if there is something I want to say to you. It would be the words thank you. Thank you for helping me see the light so that I could stand back on my feet.
Thank you for seeing me not as a lost cause but as a work in progress, and most of all thank you for opening my eyes. I won’t let you down and most of all I won’t let myself down.
This is about growth, this is about taking it to another level and I will do everything in my power to get there. So on Sacrifice I take my new found philosophy and put it into practice. I will learn how to crawl before I walk. Walk before I run, and most of all stand before I do anything.
I will be back on my feet and it won’t be long before I am soaring again. Just watch and see, the credits may have looked like they were rolling but deep down it’s only prepping you for the sequel. This film is not done and it will be continued. You can count on that fact…
Hollywood, California
On The Set
{For Crystal Millar it was another busy day on the set as she was in the middle of filming. Crystal was playing the role of a detective and the camera followed her as she slid across a car duke of hazards style. She seemed to be in hot pursuit and just as she was running about to catch the fleeing villain she was stopped in her tracks when somebody jumped out in front of her. That person who jumped in front of her was none other than Emma Danielson. Crystal tried to come to a screeching halt but the unexpected arrival of Emma caused Crystal to trip as she fell flat on her face. In the background the director could be scene getting extremely upset as he screamed out at the top of his lungs.}
Director: “CUT!!!!!!! We were almost there. Crystal you better talk to your friends remember no friends allowed on the set!”
{Crystal just sighs as she shakes her head in disgust before picking herself back up. She just slowly turns her attention over to Emma as she yells back at the director.}
Crystal: “Friends?! You mean we used to be friends! I don’t even know why she is either but I can guarantee you that she won’t be here this long. She was just on her way!”
{Crystal looks deeply into Emma’s eyes as she seems befuddled.}
Crystal: “Which reminds me why are you here on the set?! You shouldn’t really be here. I was in the middle of something!”
Emma: “I am sure that it could wait. Truth be told I came here to see you. Especially with the way that our match went, I just wanted to say that I am really proud of you.”
Crystal: “Proud of what exactly?! That I lost yet another match and am still trying to find a way to find my identity?! Look I see what you are trying to do here Emma but it’s not going to work. I flopped in that match with you. I proved to be nothing more than a shell of my former self and…”
Emma: “And that’s a ridiculous claim. I know you have been coming down on yourself for a very long time now. It just seems like you are constantly beating yourself up over and over again but truth be told you were amazing out there in that ring. Did you hear how the fans were cheering for you?! Did you see them clap for you, and how much they adored you?! Sure you might not have won but that doesn’t mean you were that bad.”
Crystal: “Horse shit I was bad and you know it.,”
Emma: “Crystal to be honest you aren’t bad at all. It’s just sometimes you don’t seem to be focused like you should be but that doesn’t make you bad. I just think you need a reminder of why you chose to wrestle.”
Crystal: “Reminder?!”
Emma: “Yes… I think you need to get back to the very basics of why you lace up the boots in the first place. What makes you want to go out to that ring and lay it all down. The only reason why I beat you is because I get to work with everybody down at development. Those girls down there are forcing me to keep in shape. You don’t think I sit on my ass why I help train the new wave of talent do you?!”
{Emma shakes her head.}
Emma: “Of course not it’s always a battle down there. It’s always about me busting my ass. Working hard to help them and in return they help me stay in the shape that I should be. That’s really the main difference between you and I. You have your movies, your albums, and do all of this extra stuff outside of the ring. I am not saying that what you do is a bad thing but you are all over the place. With me I am fully committed to wrestling and my mind is strictly on that.”
Crystal: “So what do you want from me Emma?!”
Emma: “I just want you to trust me. You missed our friendship?! So allow me to help you out and let’s give ourselves a chance to reconnect. Why don’t you come with me to developmental for a little bit. Watch the new wave of Diamonds wrestle. Maybe seeing them might inspire you a bit.”
Crystal: “I guess I could do that. It’s not like I would be losing anything.”
Emma: “And I think you should also talk to Mrs. Conway too… She has this habit of helping Diamonds in need. She’s not one to let her Diamonds really rot away and if you are willing to put in the effort I am sure she will do everything in her power to make sure that you reach the next level.”
Crystal: “You really think so?!”
Emma: “I know so… I know you might be hesitant because of your past with her but give it a try. I guarantee that.”
Crystal:[b/] “Fine I will give that a try… Sorry for everything Emma. The way I talked you down on Twitter and….”
Emma: “Don’t say anymore. It was helping you get back to the Crystal that we all want to see. I knew I had to answer that challenge. Come on I think you spent enough on the set let me buy you a drink first round is on me.”
{With that the two smile one another as they leave the set and we fade out on this image.}
Lizzy Dalmon when I look at you I honestly see a woman who is blinded by her own arrogance, by her money, and by her desire for greed. I really wish you would wash yourself clean of these evil traits before they become your own undoing. I know it seems weird for me to call you out on these things but truth be told the reason I can call you out on all of these things is because I was also worshipping these same idols.
Let me tell you from first hand experience that they won’t get you the things you want. It’s going to end up tearing you apart and in the long run it won’t really bring you the happiness that you are looking for. I must give you credit where credit is due though however because even though things may not be working out for you in the way that you wished it was. The truth of the reality is that you have had a much better career than me in IWF this year.
Your year for the most part has been going really well I must say. You found your way into getting into the Iron Maiden match, and even though you didn’t win you still had the opportunity to become the next biggest thing in the division. You had that chance to at least fight for the right to be on the biggest card of the year. You qualified for that opportunity and I was never even given the chance.
I never had the opportunity at all and because in some eyes I guess I really fell far from the grace of where I was at. To end last year I was pouring my heart on the line against Eternity and since then I really haven’t done much but I know for a fact that all of that is going to change.
Because I am willing to change.
I am making a change in my life so that I don’t follow in the same path over and over again looking for a new result. No I am seeking true change so I can better myself and in return it will better the division. I want the chance to grow and after losing all of these matches I know in order to really seek what I am after I need to get past you.
When we fought you humiliated me. You beat me with my finishing move, granted we do the same exact move, but you were a step ahead. You proved to be more hungry for it and it gave you a Shield Maiden Championship match.
Now I feel like the tides have turned and our roles have been reversed. After being left out in the dark for so long it’s time to find my way back to the light again. It’s time to fight for my spot, and I refuse to give it up to anybody else again.
This is my change, and success can’t be far away.
No more committing the same sins that you do on a daily basis. I am better than that and I don’t want to be that woman anymore because it didn’t get me anywhere. I rather focus on just being a wrestler first and foremost, and focusing everything on that.
Everything else will follow suit. This much I know. Who am I?!
I am Crystal Millar. I am your SILVER SCREEN QUEEN, AND IT’S ABOUT TIME YOU BOW BEFORE ME!
Nothing will deter me from going through with this change for I am the rose that simply refuses to wither away…
Good luck you will need it.
Well howdy there pardner.