Post by Alicia Lukas on May 19, 2017 0:44:00 GMT
Off Camera
Detroit Michigan
4 Weeks Ago
Alicia sits cross legged on the bathroom floor chewing her bottom lip nervously staring at the small plastic strip in front of her. Her hands stay clasped together and she breathes deep. It has only been sixty seconds but felt like an eternity. Her long blond hair flowed down her shoulders and back as she was dressed in simply black sweatpants and a singlet top.
She took a deep breath and picked the pregnancy test up again squinting at it trying to see a line, a cross, anything that was needed to get an answer. She shook her head putting it back down hearing footsteps coming close to the door. Her eyes widened as she heard them stop right outside, a clear of the throat and a knock. “Uh, babe you ok?”
Alicia panicked and got to her feet grabbing the test in her hand sliding to the door opening it up a crack looking out with a smile and a nod. Travis stood in a pair of shorts and a shirt. His bright blue eyes staring at hers. “Um, I...yeah I’m fine, just...you know...girl stuff….”
Alicia goes to close the door, Travis puts his foot in front of it and curls his head around the corner, his eyebrow up as he sighs knowing his fiance so well. He steps in and looks down at her. Her left hand around her back slightly hiding the test. Travis smiles warmly, his hands gliding down her arms and around the back to her hands feeling the test, she lets it go blushing, he looks at it almost shocked.“Lic….is this?...”. She stutters her hands moving quickly. “Baby I’m so sorry, I didn’t know how to tell you please don’t be mad at me….”
“Mad?...you think you’re pregnant?...” She looks down and gives a small nod placing her hand on her stomach. Travis stepped forward, his right hand moving to her chin guiding her to look up at him, his lips met hers as a way to show his feelings calming Alicia down. "I’d never be mad, having a child with you, marrying you. That means the most to me. That is my idea of happiness”.
“It’s about five minutes away from showing….I’ve been waiting. It could be my new workout routine though...so...I’m not getting my hopes up...especially since the odds are so low I can even….have anymore kids” She paused for a moment looking down, Travis wrapped his arms around her tight, his hand rubbing her back for comfort, his lips moving in small kisses on the side of her head. “I love you Lic” “I love you too” Her voice was muffled and mumbles into his chest, after a few moments Travis let her go, she took a deep breath looking down at the test, her expression dropped further, she shoves the test against his chest and turned from him. Travis looked down and sighed, Negative. Her heard whimpering and a large breath in, he looked up as Alicia was turned away, her arms hugging herself.
“I’m sorry” Travis shook his head stepping forward. His arms moving around hers holding her back to his chest, his cheek came to rest on hers, he swayed lightly moving against her, his heartbeat calming her down. “Sorry for what?. Being my other half?. Loving me?. Making me the luckiest guy in the world?” She breathed deep speaking in a low, hushed tone “For not giving you a baby” Travis chuckles lightly under his breath “We have plenty of time. Besides, we’re both in the middle of amazing careers. I want a baby with you, but I don’t want your dreams to be the sacrifice” She turned around kissing him hard with passion, Travis moved his hands down to her hips lifting her up with ease to sit on the bathroom countertop. Her legs moved around him crossing over his hips and around his back as she smiled pulling back from the kiss.
“Besides It’s not like we can’t get in plenty of practice”
Off Camera
Detroit Michigan
2 Weeks Ago
She looked over at Travis. His phone in his hands. Wearing a pair of jeans without a shirt. Alicia tilted her head, her bottom lip curling into her teeth as she nibbled ever so softly. Travis let out a sigh as his eyebrows raised up. Alicia moved closer to him, her hand reaching out and sliding across the naked flesh of his midsection, her head resting on his shoulder. Travis smiled and gave her a small kiss on the forehead but went back to his phone pulling away….
Alicia’s heart sank, she folded her arms over her chest. Her reflection in the kitchen window catching her eye. Her hair was frizzy but tied in a side ponytail, she wore no make up and was in one of Travis’ shirts and a pair of shorts. She shook her head and closed her eyes. Her mind flashing back to that damn pregnancy test and the negative line.
Travis sits on the couch, his eyes locked on a few things on his phone as he seems frustrated. Alicia moves over to him and lowers herself down on his lap facing him, a leg on either side of him. She slides her hands up his chest shoving her arms out of the way to kiss him hard. Travis smiles and nods before sitting back with a sigh. “Babe...I’m a bit busy.”
She tilted her head and kissed him again, harder this time, her body moving against his hard as her nails dug into his skin, Travis lightly pushed her off to the side with a shake of his head and a laugh. “Come on Lic enough.” Alicia looked shocked and shook her head scoffing as she pushed up onto her feet walking away through the kitchen, passed Leah’s room where she was sleeping, passed the boys empty bedroom to her and Travis’ room. She closed the door with an angry grunt as she paced back and forth in front of the bed. Her eyes welling up with tears, her fists balled up in anger and frustration. The door opens and Travis pops his head through.
“Hey...what’s up?.” She glares at him, if looks could kill Travis would be on the floor, dead. She grits her teeth before laughing to herself. Her blood boiling, her head throbbing as a headache seemed to set in. Her bright blue eyes losing colour and fading out to a steel grey. “What’s up?...that’s all you have to say to me Travis?” He looked confused. His handsome features staying normal as his mouth stays slightly open, no words or reason coming to him as his arms stay to his side, his phone still in his hand. “I’m sorry I...I just have on my mind Lic”
“You do realise that you haven’t touched me since…..since I had that negative test” There was a silence. Alicia was upset, her chest heaved as she fought back the frustrated lonely tears. Travis shook his head and sighed putting his phone down lifting his hands up trying to calm her as he stepped forward.Travis slid his hands down her shoulders and arms. “You need to calm down….nothing has changed.”
Alicia scoffs and shakes her head. She pulls away and laughs to herself. Her own phone vibrating in her pocket as she looked away, her attempts at getting his attention before failing leaving a sour taste in her mouth. She shook her head and sighed. “I’m going to get out of here for a while”
“Yeah I know you have a match in IWF babe I-” He turned noticing her bag. Not just packed for an overnight stay and work, it was full of clothes, a dress, jeans, sleepwear, her wrestling gear. He sighed and shook his head. “You’re not coming back are you?...does this have something to do with Kaden?” Alicia stayed silent. Her eyes darted away as she swallowed hard. Travis reached out, his fingertips lightly brushing her face. Alicia slapped his hand away and growled out as her teeth ground together, her muscles tensing. “I tried to get your attention, I wanted it..I craved it...but I got it somewhere else..from someone who actually CARED”
Travis stepped back, his eyebrows up in shock. ”You don’t think I care?...and what you think fucking Kaden Kessler does?. Alicia I love you...what you..have feelings for him?!” Alicia stayed silent again. She couldn’t look him in the eye. Her heart beat fast confused. Her mind a mess as a million tiny thoughts raced through, each one like a small pin prick causing her to bleed out. Nothing coherent came, nothing comforting or calm. Just anger, frustration, pain and confusion. Travis saw it and didn’t wait for an answer. He turned and walked out opening the door and slamming it again behind him. Alicia opened her mouth, her mind begging her mouth to say the words, her throat getting a huge lump before letting out a small squeak under her breathe too faint for anyone but herself to hear.
“I love you…”
On Camera
Dayton Ohio.
“I know what some of you are thinking. Man Alicia is going to be in a horrible mood after last week. Losing her match to Shae O’Hara, failing to bounce back after the loss to Eternity. You know it’s funny but nothing could be further from the truth. See I love competition. I love going out to that ring scared that I’m going to lose. Scared that I might not be good enough. It’s only through facing opponents tougher that you can get better and that’s what I want to do…”
“I knew stepping in the ring with Shae that she was something special. A focused Shae O’Hara is a dangerous animal. And truth is I could stand here, point my finger into the camera and I could stomp my feet about how Eternity obviously tried to play fuckery with the match with her laughter. But the truth is I allowed myself to get distracted. Instead of focusing on Shae I stupidly turned my back….Rookie move Alicia...rookie move…”
Alicia sighs deeply and shakes her head running her hands through her long blond hair.
“But look at the run I’ve had in IWF since signing my contract. Look at the matches I’ve had. Win or lose I’ve gone out there and made sure that the woman across from me has known and felt that she was in a fight. In fact I’d like to think that I gave Eternity the toughest night she’s had in a long time. I’d also like to think that Shae’s words were confirmed. See she made her feelings about me known and I also feel as if she was the first one of you to actually….get me….”
“I’m not here to hold people down or verbally destroy them.”
“I’m not here to point my finger at an entire roster and say that you’re all somehow beneath me.”
“No, I’m here to prove that I’m one of the best professional wrestlers on this planet while also making each and every one of you realise that you can do better. Be better. That inside everyone is the potential to be a champion and have their time in the sun as long as they reach out and take it. Now admittedly some people have a higher ceiling than others and some will have more difficulty breaking through that ceiling.”
She grins again and shrugs. Her upper body in a black and purple IWF shirt and a pair of camo pants on the bottom with black combat boots.
“But anyone can beat anyone on any given day in this business. That’s why I love it. You can have cinderella stories and miracles. A break from the status quo. Shae wasn’t a miracle. Shae wasn’t a fairytale. She is a tough irish bitch doing tough irish bitch things. And one of those things...is beating me. But that’s ok, you win some and you lose some and losing to Shae isn’t a bad thing, it’s an honor. And I would love. LOVE to get in the ring with her again and mix it up….”
“but you know who should be honored to get back in the ring with me and mix it up?. You know who should be chomping at the bit to try and shut me up or prove me wrong?. Fiona McFly.”
Alicia pauses for a moment and sighs deeply.
"At the risk of sounding arrogant and setting off some kind of war here I have to say that part of me is hoping and praying that you finally have that moment Fi. That moment where the opinion you have of yourself in your head actually matches your skill set. That moment where it all clicks and you can have that big win we talked about. Do you remember that Fiona?. We talked about how you never really got that win that propelled you through that ceiling?”
“You had a chance recently FiFi. You had that shot to really prove me wrong. Hell you had a chance to do that the week I said it. You and I were double booked. Two matches. A multi-person match to get that final spot in the iron maiden and then a singles match. Both of those matches were your shot. Both of them meant that you had your own future in your hands. If you won the match and got into the Iron maiden you had your shot right there. But you didn’t win that match did you FiFi?...”
“No...you didn’t…”
“You know who did win that match and stamp her ticket to that match?...me...I did…”
“And even though I failed to win I still went into one of the biggest most destructive matches in IWF and stood tall and my stock was more going in than it was coming out. And I learned more in a lose than I would have in a win. Unlike you Fiona, I actually learn from my losses. And I don’t mean to sound too bitchy about that but it’s true. You lose bitch matches or ones that will get you to the big match and you don’t take it all in. You don’t learn from it and try anything different.”
“Hell look at the match we had. You didn’t put in any effort beforehand, you didn’t do any research and when it came time to face me and talk about me you instead rambled on about Pandora and how she’s being trained by Spike Kane. Not just that but you stood there and told me all about how you were going to reclaim your rightful place in the Diamonds division….”
“Reclaim?”
“Reclaim what Fiona?. You should be aiming to surpass the mediocre level you reached and ascend. You should be aiming for the Shieldmaiden or for the Diamonds or to atleast get a shot to be in the discussion. See right now people are discussing me. They’re discussing my run and if I can get back to my winning ways, they’re dreaming about myself and Eternity for a second time or myself and Shae or hell ALL THREE OF US. They’re discussing future match ups with myself against a Garcia or against Pandora….they are discussing me in great matches….with you it's….what outlandish bullshit is going to fall out of Fiona’s mouth as an excuse this week?”
She shakes her head again and slides her hands into the pockets of her camo pants.
“People are more concerned with your words and comments than your actions. You have it the wrong way around Fiona. This business is based in what you can do, what you can prove and what you can accomplish. Not what you can say. The talking comes after. The talking comes when you have gone out there and given it everything you have only to give just that little bit more.”
“To see what kind of person you are one only has to look at a question you asked me last time we faced off. You saw we were pulling “double duty” and you asked me. Which match would I rather win. The multi-person battle royal to get the Iron Maiden spot?. Or a singles victory against you. I never replied back then through social media or another promo because the question struck me as odd. Because you and I have completely different ways of thinking. You wondered which would be a better win….I just took them both….”
“You said it wasn’t going to happen and I should think logically...this business isn’t logical. And the fact you constantly misused that damn word so much that it’s become a joke and an internet meme just goes to further my point. Mentally you are not right for this business. You have the physical tools and when you just let go and let your body take over you can be impressive. But when you overthink...you stumble and you fall...and that’s what you’ll do this week against myself and Kate Steele-Warren…”
Alicia smiles slowly and folds her arms.
“Hello Kate. I didn’t want you to think I forgot about you. I mean I kind of just went on a nice little rant there didn’t I?. But how could I forgot about the former Shieldmaiden?. I mean I know most of the world has forgotten you held that title but it’s ok, I do my research unlike FiFi…”
“I don’t mean to belittle your title reign Kate, after all it’s the only thing you’ve been able to accomplish in this company and it was beating Shae o'Hara and ending her reign at 13 days. Your reign was longer though and you were able to get some defenses in but you unfortunately had your title reign after Kayla Richards impressive inaugural reign that set the pace and Paige Garcia’s amazing one that broke the original…”
“Yours and Shae’s were lost transitional reigns and honestly I feel bad for you both. To have won a championship and then have been overshadowed. But then again being overshadowed in your career is something you should be used to Kate. Hell we’ve heard it time and time again. You talk about how long you’ve been here. You talk about coming up at a time when Ana Valentine, Amber Richards and Jessica Reed ruled the Diamonds division….”
“Slowly a transition happened, stars moved on and instead new women rose into their place. Eternity who had always been a mainstay here took her spot as one of the most dangerous women on the planet, the Garcia’s became stars. And now we have an era where Pandora Freeman and myself are the two hottest commodities in the division aside from the two champions….”
Alicia tilts her head and scoffs.
“But through it all, as people were on the rise and then fell you stayed in the background, overshadowed and forgotten about all because just like Fiona you could never grab the brass ring in front of you and run with it. Sure you’ve had a little more success than her with the Shieldmaiden but you still hit your head on that glass ceiling….”
“I have to wonder if you were to get a win against Fiona and myself what the hell would you do with it?. Would you somehow go on and try and beat Eternity?. Maybe go after Paige?. Or would you stumble the next week and spiral back down?. I don’t want to see that Kate, hell I don’t think anyone wants to see that. We’ve all seen what you’re capable of and while in this business there has to be winners and losers the truth is that we all want and need the division to be competitive. And right now you’re not living up to your end of the bargain…”
“Neither of you are. And while I faced two women in the last two weeks who exemplify what it is to be an IWF “Diamond” you two are at the opposite end. Talented, beautiful, but unable to live up to their own potential because they can’t look past their own insecurities. I want you to succeed, I want to see Fiona McFly finally do something worthwhile with her mouth that isn’t laughed at or X-rated, I want to see Kate Steele live up to the heights of wrestling like she has tried to with her band….”
“But at the same time, I just want to go to that ring and have the thrill of competition...to think “well damn...maybe I won’t win this match”....but with this one..as much as it breaks my heart to say it….I don’t feel that excitement...and that pisses me off….”
“On sacrifice I go back to my winning ways and start my climb back to Shae or Eternity….cause those two...they are what you should want to be….”
Well howdy there pardner.