Post by Crystal Zdunich on Jun 12, 2017 4:29:33 GMT
Would you look at that, another week passes and yet it’s another week where I can’t find myself having the ability to win a match. I honestly just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I know that losing is an essential part of wrestling. It’s something that everybody should have to go through so they could learn from their mistakes, and find ways to growing as a wrestler but for me it just seems to be the norm now so why should I even bother anymore?
I know Emma has been spending so much of her time with me. Placing endless time into trying to fix this broken mess but with the rate I am going I should just flat out tell her that some messes aren’t even worth repairing and I am clearly one of them.
There were five women in that match last week. There were five women who all entered the ring with the intention to prove themselves to this company. They were proving themselves to show Kathleen Conway that they wanted to be considered the very next big thing in this division and yet Astrid was the one that was able to yank me up like a rag doll and I was the one to come crashing down like nothing.
But it seems par for the course lately doesn’t it?!
You see after not be included on the Motor City Pay Per View which was in my own backyard and not being able to compete at the Night of the Immortals show what am I really chasing afterwards anymore?!
What purpose does a movie star serve when they are no longer good enough to reach the grand marquee of headlines or even be considered a big coming attraction? What purpose are they to serve?!
I refuse to let myself become one of those washed up actresses who only end up in bargain bins in a big retail store. That is so not me and everything I have ever done has always been high budget. I am much more than one of those washed up has-beens who has to resort to that.
But to be honest I guess that’s the reason why I accepted this match against Maxine Valentine on Open Fight Night. It’s because I don’t want to be long forgotten. I don’t want to be someone who everyone just moves on from. I don’t want to be in the conversation of never could be or never will be but I want to be the woman that everyone can see growth from.
A woman who can finally overcome every form of obstacle and show she has the tools to have full redemption and be the wrestler everyone knows she can be. That’s the woman that I want to be.
Is it stupid that I had to accept Maxine’s challenge in order to prove such a point?!
Truth be told it is very dumb. I would be foolish to act like this match isn’t causing me to piss in my panties. I would be naïve if I said I am not a tad afraid. After all I am going against somebody that is 6ft tall somebody that weighs about 270 pounds. That’s more than double what I way plus some and she will tower over me but you know what?
Despite what’s happening or how I might feel… I have to go out to that ring and fight because there’s no telling when I might get the chance to do so again. If I want to be on PPV I have to showcase that I am PPV worthy and never have I ever been in this type of situation before.
After all IWF used to be a land of opportunity, a land where it was simply given because there wasn’t a lot of Diamonds and as long as you had a pulse you would get rewarded. However it seems like the talent is growing. More people are joining by the second and I will need to fight for my spot.
That’s apparent when I wasn’t even offered an opportunity to be in the Iron Maiden but there’s no time to be crying over spilled milk or dwelling on the past. Right now Heiress to the Throne is on the horizon and I want to put on a very strong impression so that the company won’t forget about me.
I need to beat the hell out of Maxine to show everyone that I still have what it takes, and even if I don’t win I just need to show the reason why I am here in the first place.
Maxine despite what you might have heard about me or what you might have seen let me be the first to tell you I won’t be a doormat for you to stomp all over to prove a point. The reason I took your challenge is to show you that I have what it takes to slay a beast. I know the T Virus might spread but the thing is I have the vaccine.
Outbreak will be averted and the zombie apocalypse will just have to wait because that movie gets delayed as mine goes to post production. This movie is where the purple haired rose grows and she tells everyone that the sequel of her career is coming. Okay so maybe we seen this movie before and the sequel already happened.
But you know my movie or should I say career is like one of those books. When it gets time to get through the final one you just can’t make one movie for it. It has to be split into two just to build the suspense.
I feel that’s where we are right now, so time to wrap this up and give the people what they want.
That is of course me winning and eventually going on to be the top star again. That’s something that can happen and it will happen.
After all you will see for yourself.
Lights
Camera
Action
It’s showtime!!!!!! Let’s put it into play shall we?!
{IWF Training Facility}
{At the IWF Training facility we open to a shot of Crystal Millar being forced to watch her latest matches by none other than Emma Danielson. Crystal watches the screen as she is lifted up by Astrid and driven directly into the mat. Three seconds goes by as Astrid has her hands held in victory. Crystal shakes her head in disgust as she looks back at Emma.}
Crystal: “I have no idea why you are showing me this but I refuse to deal with this type of nonsense Emma. I am out of here….”
Emma: “So just like that you are going to walk away from me when I laid my neck out to help you. Crystal you see what’s missing from you in that match?! The old you… All you ever seem to do is talk but there’s no action to back what you try to say.”
Crystal: “What do you mean no action?! I always show action… Especially when one of my directors screams action on the set I always go out there and put on the show of a lifetime…”
{Emma shakes her head.}
Emma: “That’s your biggest problem Crystal. Why does everything have to do with movies with you? I will admit you are an awesome actress nobody is going to deny that but personally I don’t give a damn what goes on at one of your sets. What I am concerned about is what happens when you step into the ring, and I think that’s where you are befuddled about.”
Crystal: “And how exactly am I confused?! Do you know what it even takes to be on a set?! How much time and effort it takes to remember my lines and to act in front of a rolling camera?!”
Emma: “I am sure it takes a lot more than I could imagine but there’s a difference between Hollywood and being in the ring Crystal! In Hollywood you can always do a redo. They can always do another take if they don’t like what they captured on camera. Of course if you mess up your lines they will let you try it again. That’s the comfort of being on a set but when you step into a match you aren’t on a set. You are in a God Damn ring and as soon as the bell rings you only get one chance to prove yourself. One chance to show the crowd and world that you deserve to be there.”
Crystal: “So in other words it’s like improv…”
Emma: “Exactly! If that’s what is going to motivate you consider it that. All you seem to do is moan and cry how you aren’t getting treated fairly how everyone is passing you by. You are like a spoiled brat who got told she can’t have a piece of candy from a candy store. Instead of worrying about how much people have cut you off why don’t you actually try to earn that all back. Earn your spot on PPV back! Show everyone you deserve it!”
Crystal: “Seriously?!”
{Emma nods her head with a grin.}
Emma: “Yes I told you I saw shades of the old Crystal when you fought me, and when you beat Lizzy Dalmon I knew you were there we just need to bring it out of you. Maybe this match with Maxine Valentine will be a wakeup call to you. Good thing I made you take that match. Being scared shitless is what you need to know that you have to face your nightmares head on.”
Crystal: “Or maybe I just need a good shotgun?”
Emma: “Shotgun?!”
Crystal: “Look I been playing a lot of Resident Evil and this bitch seems like everything about her is all Resident Evil. A shotgun is always overpowered and….”
Emma: “You been hanging around Zelda too much….”
Crystal: “…So what?! What else am I supposed to do….”
Emma: “You go out there and fight! You show that woman that you have it… Don’t talk about it be about it. Actions speak louder than words so go go go!”
Crystal: “Go where exactly?!”
Emma: “I am trying to hype you up! You know what just give me 5 laps to start and I will think of more ways of being this drill sergeant to you!”
{With that Crystal nods her head as she begins to jog around the facility. Emma nods her head with a smile.}
Emma: “Perhaps I should blast Hearts on Fire for her… That should get her in a mode and maybe channel something good…”
{With that Emma laughs to herself as we fade elsewhere.}
I know Emma has been spending so much of her time with me. Placing endless time into trying to fix this broken mess but with the rate I am going I should just flat out tell her that some messes aren’t even worth repairing and I am clearly one of them.
There were five women in that match last week. There were five women who all entered the ring with the intention to prove themselves to this company. They were proving themselves to show Kathleen Conway that they wanted to be considered the very next big thing in this division and yet Astrid was the one that was able to yank me up like a rag doll and I was the one to come crashing down like nothing.
But it seems par for the course lately doesn’t it?!
You see after not be included on the Motor City Pay Per View which was in my own backyard and not being able to compete at the Night of the Immortals show what am I really chasing afterwards anymore?!
What purpose does a movie star serve when they are no longer good enough to reach the grand marquee of headlines or even be considered a big coming attraction? What purpose are they to serve?!
I refuse to let myself become one of those washed up actresses who only end up in bargain bins in a big retail store. That is so not me and everything I have ever done has always been high budget. I am much more than one of those washed up has-beens who has to resort to that.
But to be honest I guess that’s the reason why I accepted this match against Maxine Valentine on Open Fight Night. It’s because I don’t want to be long forgotten. I don’t want to be someone who everyone just moves on from. I don’t want to be in the conversation of never could be or never will be but I want to be the woman that everyone can see growth from.
A woman who can finally overcome every form of obstacle and show she has the tools to have full redemption and be the wrestler everyone knows she can be. That’s the woman that I want to be.
Is it stupid that I had to accept Maxine’s challenge in order to prove such a point?!
Truth be told it is very dumb. I would be foolish to act like this match isn’t causing me to piss in my panties. I would be naïve if I said I am not a tad afraid. After all I am going against somebody that is 6ft tall somebody that weighs about 270 pounds. That’s more than double what I way plus some and she will tower over me but you know what?
Despite what’s happening or how I might feel… I have to go out to that ring and fight because there’s no telling when I might get the chance to do so again. If I want to be on PPV I have to showcase that I am PPV worthy and never have I ever been in this type of situation before.
After all IWF used to be a land of opportunity, a land where it was simply given because there wasn’t a lot of Diamonds and as long as you had a pulse you would get rewarded. However it seems like the talent is growing. More people are joining by the second and I will need to fight for my spot.
That’s apparent when I wasn’t even offered an opportunity to be in the Iron Maiden but there’s no time to be crying over spilled milk or dwelling on the past. Right now Heiress to the Throne is on the horizon and I want to put on a very strong impression so that the company won’t forget about me.
I need to beat the hell out of Maxine to show everyone that I still have what it takes, and even if I don’t win I just need to show the reason why I am here in the first place.
Maxine despite what you might have heard about me or what you might have seen let me be the first to tell you I won’t be a doormat for you to stomp all over to prove a point. The reason I took your challenge is to show you that I have what it takes to slay a beast. I know the T Virus might spread but the thing is I have the vaccine.
Outbreak will be averted and the zombie apocalypse will just have to wait because that movie gets delayed as mine goes to post production. This movie is where the purple haired rose grows and she tells everyone that the sequel of her career is coming. Okay so maybe we seen this movie before and the sequel already happened.
But you know my movie or should I say career is like one of those books. When it gets time to get through the final one you just can’t make one movie for it. It has to be split into two just to build the suspense.
I feel that’s where we are right now, so time to wrap this up and give the people what they want.
That is of course me winning and eventually going on to be the top star again. That’s something that can happen and it will happen.
After all you will see for yourself.
Lights
Camera
Action
It’s showtime!!!!!! Let’s put it into play shall we?!
{IWF Training Facility}
{At the IWF Training facility we open to a shot of Crystal Millar being forced to watch her latest matches by none other than Emma Danielson. Crystal watches the screen as she is lifted up by Astrid and driven directly into the mat. Three seconds goes by as Astrid has her hands held in victory. Crystal shakes her head in disgust as she looks back at Emma.}
Crystal: “I have no idea why you are showing me this but I refuse to deal with this type of nonsense Emma. I am out of here….”
Emma: “So just like that you are going to walk away from me when I laid my neck out to help you. Crystal you see what’s missing from you in that match?! The old you… All you ever seem to do is talk but there’s no action to back what you try to say.”
Crystal: “What do you mean no action?! I always show action… Especially when one of my directors screams action on the set I always go out there and put on the show of a lifetime…”
{Emma shakes her head.}
Emma: “That’s your biggest problem Crystal. Why does everything have to do with movies with you? I will admit you are an awesome actress nobody is going to deny that but personally I don’t give a damn what goes on at one of your sets. What I am concerned about is what happens when you step into the ring, and I think that’s where you are befuddled about.”
Crystal: “And how exactly am I confused?! Do you know what it even takes to be on a set?! How much time and effort it takes to remember my lines and to act in front of a rolling camera?!”
Emma: “I am sure it takes a lot more than I could imagine but there’s a difference between Hollywood and being in the ring Crystal! In Hollywood you can always do a redo. They can always do another take if they don’t like what they captured on camera. Of course if you mess up your lines they will let you try it again. That’s the comfort of being on a set but when you step into a match you aren’t on a set. You are in a God Damn ring and as soon as the bell rings you only get one chance to prove yourself. One chance to show the crowd and world that you deserve to be there.”
Crystal: “So in other words it’s like improv…”
Emma: “Exactly! If that’s what is going to motivate you consider it that. All you seem to do is moan and cry how you aren’t getting treated fairly how everyone is passing you by. You are like a spoiled brat who got told she can’t have a piece of candy from a candy store. Instead of worrying about how much people have cut you off why don’t you actually try to earn that all back. Earn your spot on PPV back! Show everyone you deserve it!”
Crystal: “Seriously?!”
{Emma nods her head with a grin.}
Emma: “Yes I told you I saw shades of the old Crystal when you fought me, and when you beat Lizzy Dalmon I knew you were there we just need to bring it out of you. Maybe this match with Maxine Valentine will be a wakeup call to you. Good thing I made you take that match. Being scared shitless is what you need to know that you have to face your nightmares head on.”
Crystal: “Or maybe I just need a good shotgun?”
Emma: “Shotgun?!”
Crystal: “Look I been playing a lot of Resident Evil and this bitch seems like everything about her is all Resident Evil. A shotgun is always overpowered and….”
Emma: “You been hanging around Zelda too much….”
Crystal: “…So what?! What else am I supposed to do….”
Emma: “You go out there and fight! You show that woman that you have it… Don’t talk about it be about it. Actions speak louder than words so go go go!”
Crystal: “Go where exactly?!”
Emma: “I am trying to hype you up! You know what just give me 5 laps to start and I will think of more ways of being this drill sergeant to you!”
{With that Crystal nods her head as she begins to jog around the facility. Emma nods her head with a smile.}
Emma: “Perhaps I should blast Hearts on Fire for her… That should get her in a mode and maybe channel something good…”
{With that Emma laughs to herself as we fade elsewhere.}
Well howdy there pardner.